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Alone
- Jan 21, 2020
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Just when I thought I couldn't feel more fed up and done with this life, it increases. The past few days I've realized how many people in my life are selfish and don't actually care for me. If only they knew what was going on in my life- things have taken a turn for the worst not just mentally but situationally! These stupid shallow fucks only care about themselves. I can't wait until they hear that I'm dead. I'm really tormented by my own thoughts, the past truly haunts me. 2 days ago I held a knife to my throat, then yesterday I stared at the noose I hung from the rafters and contemplated whether hanging myself is worth it. When I express these feelings, the only advice I get is to take my dumb ass placebo effect antidepressants. FUCK THAT. I need a real fucking solution here and suicide is the only one.
I don't give a fuck what anyone says. It will NEVER get better. Not after several fucking years of this shit. I'm done. I'm going soon. And not for stupid or petty reasons either. I need to let go of how karma is a fantasy and how some people are just destined to fail, suffer, and be laughed at. That's me! It's always been me. Hopefully I can succeed at the most important action of all... CTB!
I don't give a fuck what anyone says. It will NEVER get better. Not after several fucking years of this shit. I'm done. I'm going soon. And not for stupid or petty reasons either. I need to let go of how karma is a fantasy and how some people are just destined to fail, suffer, and be laughed at. That's me! It's always been me. Hopefully I can succeed at the most important action of all... CTB!
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