Help I’m don’t want to be here anymore.

[Lydia]

When you exhaust every single option of happiness but there's nothing left. No one cares, not a single person and it hurts like hell. Acts of kindness are clearly not meant to be wasted on me.

I don't want to be here anymore.
I'm so done.
I don't know how to ctb though.
N seems dodgy as I don't want to post money in a letter, train track seems messy, I live in the UK so can't acquire a gun.

I'd prefer a peaceful way such as drowning but not sure how to do that without survival instincts kicking in. Unless I pass out into a body of water? Any ideas?

 

[time2go]

From what I can tell drowning would be far from peaceful.

Have you considered something like CO or SN?

 

[Lydia]

It would be??

Would CO require a car?
And I'm not sure where to obtain Sn?

 

[Macc Lad]

When you exhaust every single option of happiness but there's nothing left. No one cares, not a single person and it hurts like hell. Acts of kindness are clearly not meant to be wasted on me.

I don't want to be here anymore.
I'm so done.
I don't know how to ctb though.
N seems dodgy as I don't want to post money in a letter, train track seems messy, I live in the UK so can't acquire a gun.

I'd prefer a peaceful way such as drowning but not sure how to do that without survival instincts kicking in. Unless I pass out into a body of water? Any ideas?

i'm in the uk as well Lydia.......my heart goes out to you, i hope you can find peace x

 

[Ashpac]

I'm from the UK too if you ever wanna chat about stuff I'm here. Hope things get better for you.

 

[DepressionsAHo]

It would be??

Would CO require a car?
And I'm not sure where to obtain Sn?

No, co doesn't require a car. Just coal and and an enclosed space

 

[time2go]

It would be??

Would CO require a car?
And I'm not sure where to obtain Sn?

Easier in a car but not necessarily.

Sn is actually very easy too aquire!

 

[WhiteRabbit]

If you can afford N, that seems like it would be a good option. I've heard drowning is actually pretty painful.

 

[lemmeeleev]

If you don't like any of those methods for whatever reason, have you considered partial or even full hanging? It does requires research and practice, especially partial, if you want a higher rate to succeed though.

 

[Lydia]

Thanks for the support and ideas. I think I'm going to look more into SN first

 

[Feline]

Hi, Lydia. I'm in the UK, too. Jumping is going to be my method, have you considered it at all?

Thanks for the support and ideas. I think I'm going to look more into SN first

 

[Lydia]

Hi, Lydia. I'm in the UK, too. Jumping is going to be my method, have you considered it at all?

No, I haven't. I feel like that would hurt too much and get very messy if it failed and I was left paralysed e.g

 

[Feline]

I totally understand. I'm mostly worried about my SI (which is why I'm still here.) I'm going to do further research regarding true effective height and the best surfaces to land on to ensure death. There are a couple of places near me that are suitable, but they're also extremely public and busy at all times!

No, I haven't. I feel like that would hurt too much and get very messy if it failed and I was left paralysed e.g