I‘m done

[Moony21]

My marriage is a mess and it's a very toxic Relationsship. He rally hurt me in the past years and I worked so hard to handle our marriage. Tonight I was on his tablet and his whatsapp messenger was connected. I saw some message with a girl from his office. The messages were really clear on what's going on. I was freaking out and asked him what's going on?!

he asked me: what did you expect?! Did you think i'm happy in this place? And just left our house. I'm shocked...even if I plan to go soon i'm heartbroken and shocked. I hate the fact what happend. I can't belive what's going on and how he could let me down like this? I feel so lost. I wish my N would be testet already. I have no idea how to calm down... how can he just leave me knowing that I am hurt. I don't want so him him again i want this feeling to stop.
I am so embarrassed and so humiliated. Its middle of night. I wanted to live him in a kind way... no allegations. I tried my best to get along with him in the last weeks to give him good memorier, even he did some hurtful things. I don't know how to hide my plans now and to not rush anything

 

[TheEndof]

I'm so sorry you're struggling with this. I can somewhat relate as I recently found out my partner has been cheating on me as well, including while I am pregnant. His reaction was similar and he has made it clear it would continue because it's what I deserve. I know the heartbreak makes going on unbearable. I don't know how I'm still here, honestly. I just try to take it a minute at a time and take peace in knowing that it'll be over soon. And cry... a lot. I have no one to talk to in real life out of pure embarrassment and shame. So, PM me if you need to talk to someone.

 

[Mloureiro]

Don't do something out of despair. No man or woman deserve your life or it's loss. Plenty of fish in the sea. Breathe, rest, take a break. And in need to vent, we are all here. Pm me whenever

 

[Final Escape]

My marriage is a mess and it's a very toxic Relationsship. He rally hurt me in the past years and I worked so hard to handle our marriage. Tonight I was on his tablet and his whatsapp messenger was connected. I saw some message with a girl from his office. The messages were really clear on what's going on. I was freaking out and asked him what's going on?!

he asked me: what did you expect?! Did you think i'm happy in this place? And just left our house. I'm shocked...even if I plan to go soon i'm heartbroken and shocked. I hate the fact what happend. I can't belive what's going on and how he could let me down like this? I feel so lost. I wish my N would be testet already. I have no idea how to calm down... how can he just leave me knowing that I am hurt. I don't want so him him again i want this feeling to stop.
I am so embarrassed and so humiliated. Its middle of night. I wanted to live him in a kind way... no allegations. I tried my best to get along with him in the last weeks to give him good memorier, even he did some hurtful things. I don't know how to hide my plans now and to not rush anything

Is there any way to get away from him? He's literally driving you to ctb and it is possible he's a narcissist or something. You can't really have a relationship with a narcissist if he is one. I mean people get involved with them and marry them but often don't realize till it's too late that this person cannot treat u well, at least not for long. They might have in the beginning. The other woman is just a new supply source or object to use probably.

 

[Moony21]

Literally he is a narcissist. Like you said I realized it too late. I often wanted to leave him alone. He told me, that's not how you should act in a marriage. We should go together throught this and figured out blabla... but he does what he wants. My plan was to leave on 25./26.1. when he's abroad. I think its too late to move back in my home town and start life new. Since my childhood I'm suffer of depression.

 

[Moonicide]

I am sorry you're dealing with all this pain and suffering, love. Your husband is absolute scum for doing that to you. You didn't deserve what he did to you, and that's on him. It has noting to do with you, his actions reflect on himself and his personality. These are his demons he needs to work on, unfortunately he dragged you down with him and it breaks my heart to see you sinking like this. My heart goes out to you and every individual that has been or is currently in a similar situation like this. Please know that this isn't your fault... I don't know your story or reason for ctb, but if the reason may be due to this man, then please don't end it. Really think this through before doing anything impulsive. No lover is worth ending your life for... We are here for you and we are here to support you during this difficult time in your life.

Sending you all of my love.