im done

[sometimes.sometimes]

im tired of this shit. someone needs to help me end it all at this fucking point. i don't care I am writing this on impulse. if I am such an awful person then I will fucking kill myself and since everybody wants to mock me whenever I say i want to die it is obvious no one will care. help me find a way.

 

[sincerely dead]

Hey. Looks like you are new here. I am too. Newer than you. Welcome, nonetheless. I am sorry you feel such a strong impulse to end your life. I do not support the notions that pro-lifers have, so please hear me when I say this: do not act on impulse. Ending your life is a major decision. Obviously. The biggest you could make toward yourself. I feel your pain through your words, and through the computer screen as odd as that sounds. I can hear the desperation and I physically feel angry toward all the people in your life that have given you hell about wanting to die. It's truly disgusting.

But please. Try to give this a second. Impulsivity is never, ever the best way to go about this kind of thing. I am here if you need to talk to someone and can happily provide you with my Discord. I know it really is so difficult. Seems like the pain of it all just ending in an instant is the best thing ever. I get it. But give yourself a minute to catch your breath. You just might.

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

Hey. Looks like you are new here. I am too. Newer than you. Welcome, nonetheless. I am sorry you feel such a strong impulse to end your life. I do not support the notions that pro-lifers have, so please hear me when I say this: do not act on impulse. Ending your life is a major decision. Obviously. The biggest you could make toward yourself. I feel your pain through your words, and through the computer screen as odd as that sounds. I can hear the desperation and I physically feel angry toward all the people in your life that have given you hell about wanting to die. It's truly disgusting.

But please. Try to give this a second. Impulsivity is never, ever the best way to go about this kind of thing. I am here if you need to talk to someone and can happily provide you with my Discord. I know it really is so difficult. Seems like the pain of it all just ending in an instant is the best thing ever. I get it. But give yourself a minute to catch your breath. You just might.

Thank you. I have always had a hard time with my impulse. I really appreciate your reply to this. I always want to die, but it is times when I have an impulse where it gets 10 times worse.

 

[sincerely dead]

Thank you. I have always had a hard time with my impulse. I really appreciate your reply to this. I always want to die, but it is times when I have an impulse where it gets 10 times worse.

I get that, believe me. Sometimes I get these severe thoughts that make me want to end it right then and there. Not like voices or anything. But just really powerful feelings within me that seem completely out of control. Like I could run right into traffic at any given instance, or whatever may seem most practical at the time. I have learned that in those moments, my survival instincts kick in most because my body is telling me that leaving on impulse is not a good idea.

I know that when I feel ready to CTB, I'll probably still have SI kick in. But I would want it to be a peaceful, well thought out decision. I'd want to know for sure that I did everything I could. I would want to know that I truly fought for everything I could have. It would be more empowering to make that decision myself in a level headed manner, rather than letting some intrusive thoughts win. I know that sounds difficult to swallow but I promise you the more patient you are with yourself in this process, the more you will truly learn about what YOU really want for yourself. And then, the choice is yours.

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

I get that, believe me. Sometimes I get these severe thoughts that make me want to end it right then and there. Not like voices or anything. But just really powerful feelings within me that seem completely out of control. Like I could run right into traffic at any given instance, or whatever may seem most practical at the time. I have learned that in those moments, my survival instincts kick in most because my body is telling me that leaving on impulse is not a good idea.

I know that when I feel ready to CTB, I'll probably still have SI kick in. But I would want it to be a peaceful, well thought out decision. I'd want to know for sure that I did everything I could. I would want to know that I truly fought for everything I could have. It would be more empowering to make that decision myself in a level headed manner, rather than letting some intrusive thoughts win. I know that sounds difficult to swallow but I promise you the more patient you are with yourself in this process, the more you will truly learn about what YOU really want for yourself. And then, the choice is yours.

I understand. Now that I have more of a clearer head, I can actually think now. Thank you!

 

[sincerely dead]

I understand. Now that I have more of a clearer head, I can actually think now. Thank you!

Please feel free to reach out any time! It's tough out there, but I've got your back.

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

Please feel free to reach out any time! It's tough out there, but I've got your back.

Thank you. Have a nice day!

 

[MrDarkness]

im tired of this shit. someone needs to help me end it all at this fucking point. i don't care I am writing this on impulse. if I am such an awful person then I will fucking kill myself and since everybody wants to mock me whenever I say i want to die it is obvious no one will care. help me find a way.

I always write on impulse it helps me clearly out my thoughts, also how fucking rude that people mock you for wanting to die, that shits just disgusting, I hope your able to find peace in life or death

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

I always write on impulse it helps me clearly out my thoughts, also how fucking rude that people mock you for wanting to die, that shits just disgusting, I hope your able to find peace in life or death

Thank you for replying to this. People always mock me for it, unfortunately, but there is not much to do about it, you know? At this point, I just need to focus on, like what you said, finding some sort of peace.

 

[MrDarkness]

Thank you for replying to this. People always mock me for it, unfortunately, but there is not much to do about it, you know? At this point, I just need to focus on, like what you said, finding some sort of peace.

Most people find peace when doing something they love or have a goal like a hobby. I hope you are able to find peace

 

[sometimes.sometimes]

Most people find peace when doing something they love or have a goal like a hobby. I hope you are able to find peace

Thank you. I have some goals I am going to focus on. Thank you for your kind words. Have a nice day!

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so awful how insensitive humans just create even more suffering in this dreadful world, existence really is so unnecessarily cruel and to me it's certainly understandable wishing to be free from everything. But anyway I wish you the best.