I'm done.

[sazonion]

I'm done. I can't cope with all this bs, and adding onto that I can't deal with my f*cking addictions and grief anymore. I need to end this. What is the best way to do it? How can I make it at least 90% likely that I'll die? I can't survive my second attempt. I'm just done. Seriously.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me Nembutal is the best way to exit this existence of course, but sadly it's not available. I just think that with methods, it has to be a personal decision deciding what is best for the individual and I guess that all that anyone can do, is do their own research into this, it's the whole point of the site after all and there are just no easy answers. But anyway, it really sounds like you've suffered so much so I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for. Life is just too cruel and I hate how it can be so hard to die, failing ctb is exactly what I fear.