MiseryLovesMyCompany
Arcanist
- Oct 8, 2020
- 482
The quality of the work I was able to do in the past weeks is starting to show the consequences. I know I was sabotaging myself for some time now, but I just can't concentrate on anything, even just getting through the day is so unbearable. The things I have to do are hard enough without me being in this state, so I expected nothing less.
I am not strong enough to see my opportunity for a stable future fall apart in front of me, because of me. I've already made so many mistakes and have so many regrets.
I've written many other things in my previous venting thread, there is no reason for repeating any of that, but everything in there still stands true.
I am even more sure now of setting a date in October. I honestly have no idea what could turn my life around at this point. I feel like I'm getting too tired to fight anymore.
I am not strong enough to see my opportunity for a stable future fall apart in front of me, because of me. I've already made so many mistakes and have so many regrets.
I've written many other things in my previous venting thread, there is no reason for repeating any of that, but everything in there still stands true.
I am even more sure now of setting a date in October. I honestly have no idea what could turn my life around at this point. I feel like I'm getting too tired to fight anymore.