Help I'm back unfortunately... Got a rope this time so its goodbye at last

[ScaredGirl]

I was hospitalized for a while after the SN stuff I now have had all my stuff removed from my house. I have no money either to get more and I still feel the same way. I have no hope. Transitioning will never work for me. my face, body, and voice will never be where I want them to be. I'm not cute, fun, lovable, or desirable platonically, sexually, or romantically. Nothing I ever do is enough. I can't make friends or have a positive relationship of any kind. I'm ugly, miserable, and have lots of reasons to end my life, trauma, disabilities, dysphoria.

I need help to find a method that Is simple and painless that I can do without money. A suicide method using household items?

I try my best to recover from my depression, anxiety, abuse, PTSD, and dysphoria I try to make friends, I'm always kind, and try t help others. But everyone uses and abuses me. Nobody loves me for real or ever will and I don't want to be alive. I should have been born with the right body. I tried to change this one but HRT and voice therapy haven't worked. Even if I were like every other girl had REAL friends and REAL love I'd still hate living because of the dysphoria.

I accept nobody will care, nobody will remember me, that If I live I will just spend my life hated, abused, and alone. I wish to end that suffering.

Here is a photo of me just in case someone here cares that I ever existed. I was a loving, kind sweet, gentle girl. I love helping people, I was always quiet and shy but try to make people smile with jokes and memes. I loved watching anime and I always wanted to find real friends find my soulmate girl and move to Japan to live out life. But I could never be enough for any soul on this earth platonically, sexually or romantically. I could never even ben enough for myself.

EDIT: I found a rope.. Im going to be leaving now and you wont remember me.. I am blessed and cursed that when I leave a room, a class, a conversation people forget i was ever there. People forget my name, my face, my identity I am forgetable.

Thanks for reading and goodbye truly <3

~Lillie...

 

[Makko]

There are no reliable household item methods. If you're not using one of the recommended poisons you can forget the "painless" part, unfortunately.

Train and jumping are free. Hanging is cheap but you need to prepare the rope which may draw attention if you're being watched. The violent-sounding methods only hurt for a very brief time if you do them right and have a bit of luck.

 

[◄✵火✵〇°Ø•WÅR•Ī°〇✵火✵►]

Op, you're adorable inside and out. I'm sorry for what you've been through. I can't guarantee it for others, but I will definitely remember you, for what it's worth. I wish you the best and I hope you find what you're looking for and I hope everything goes well for you, whatever you choose to do.

 

[spiderlily]

You seem so sweet, have killer hair, and feel like someone I would get along with. If you've truly decided to go, I wish you a safe journey. I'm sorry you've had to feel so much pain despite doing your best to give to those around you.

 

[Lady black]

Sad you came to this point. I hope you fill peace, friends and your girlfriend on the other side. You are not ugly we'll remember you here. I wish you a peaceful and comfortable hanging

 

[Disco Biscuit]

You're really pretty, scaredgirl, and you have beautiful eyes. You are a beautiful and sensitive soul.

 

[ClosetGoth]

You may not see it but you are beautiful. I'm sorry you are in pain and feel this way. I will remember your face and wish you peace. Hugs.

 

[fred farkle]

always time to give life another chance. the bus will always be there.

 

[CatabolicSeed]

You're not ugly at all, jsyk! You're super cute!

As a fellow trans person: Most people's bodies, even cis people, will never be where they want them to be. Transitioning isn't an all or nothing deal. Dysphoria is a bitch but transitioning takes time, lots of it. I'm sorty people have been cruel to you, but know there are people out there who care.

I don't know if you're still here, but although it's ultimately up to each individual to choose their own fate (I myself plan to end my own life in 2 months), if you're still here I urge you to give this a second thought. Either way, I wish you peace.

 

[FreeAngel]

You're a beautiful young woman and I hope you'll feel better on the other side

 

[mini_weeny]

R u there girl?

 

[aneurysm]

OP, you look exactly like your profile pic <3

 

[Uzera]

God you are so beautiful. Being trans is so fucking hard. I don't know if i'm gonna make it either. It looks like you're probably already gone and won't see this anyways. I wish you could of had the life you wanted and got to be around people who didn't abuse you. Nice thoughtful people seem rare unfortunately.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

I was hospitalized for a while after the SN stuff I now have had all my stuff removed from my house. I have no money either to get more and I still feel the same way. I have no hope. Transitioning will never work for me. my face, body, and voice will never be where I want them to be. I'm not cute, fun, lovable, or desirable platonically, sexually, or romantically. Nothing I ever do is enough. I can't make friends or have a positive relationship of any kind. I'm ugly, miserable, and have lots of reasons to end my life, trauma, disabilities, dysphoria.

I need help to find a method that Is simple and painless that I can do without money. A suicide method using household items?

I try my best to recover from my depression, anxiety, abuse, PTSD, and dysphoria I try to make friends, I'm always kind, and try t help others. But everyone uses and abuses me. Nobody loves me for real or ever will and I don't want to be alive. I should have been born with the right body. I tried to change this one but HRT and voice therapy haven't worked. Even if I were like every other girl had REAL friends and REAL love I'd still hate living because of the dysphoria.

I accept nobody will care, nobody will remember me, that If I live I will just spend my life hated, abused, and alone. I wish to end that suffering.

Here is a photo of me just in case someone here cares that I ever existed. I was a loving, kind sweet, gentle girl. I love helping people, I was always quiet and shy but try to make people smile with jokes and memes. I loved watching anime and I always wanted to find real friends find my soulmate girl and move to Japan to live out life. But I could never be enough for any soul on this earth platonically, sexually or romantically. I could never even ben enough for myself.

EDIT: I found a rope.. Im going to be leaving now and you wont remember me.. I am blessed and cursed that when I leave a room, a class, a conversation people forget i was ever there. People forget my name, my face, my identity I am forgetable.

Thanks for reading and goodbye truly <3

~Lillie...

I think you are beautiful. Your eyes are shining.

 

[lofticries]

I think you're pretty op. When I seen your pic mirai kuriyama instantly came to mind.

 

[insanedoomer]

clearly y dont know what is to be ugly , y are such a cute and you dispose of a large potentials :/ , but only lucky / good people must leave .
R.I.p
but if y still alive you always have time to think .

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

You are very beautiful. In the end only you can make the choice about what to do, but I think it is such a shame that you view yourself as ugly because other people have put you down and sewn those seeds of self-hatred in your mind. You are lovely and kind. Those who would abuse, torment, and take advantage of you are the ones who have little value. I'm not sure if you're still around, but if you are, I hope you know that the cruel things they have told you are not true.

 

[ab_]

I was hospitalized for a while after the SN stuff I now have had all my stuff removed from my house. I have no money either to get more and I still feel the same way. I have no hope. Transitioning will never work for me. my face, body, and voice will never be where I want them to be. I'm not cute, fun, lovable, or desirable platonically, sexually, or romantically. Nothing I ever do is enough. I can't make friends or have a positive relationship of any kind. I'm ugly, miserable, and have lots of reasons to end my life, trauma, disabilities, dysphoria.

I need help to find a method that Is simple and painless that I can do without money. A suicide method using household items?

I try my best to recover from my depression, anxiety, abuse, PTSD, and dysphoria I try to make friends, I'm always kind, and try t help others. But everyone uses and abuses me. Nobody loves me for real or ever will and I don't want to be alive. I should have been born with the right body. I tried to change this one but HRT and voice therapy haven't worked. Even if I were like every other girl had REAL friends and REAL love I'd still hate living because of the dysphoria.

I accept nobody will care, nobody will remember me, that If I live I will just spend my life hated, abused, and alone. I wish to end that suffering.

Here is a photo of me just in case someone here cares that I ever existed. I was a loving, kind sweet, gentle girl. I love helping people, I was always quiet and shy but try to make people smile with jokes and memes. I loved watching anime and I always wanted to find real friends find my soulmate girl and move to Japan to live out life. But I could never be enough for any soul on this earth platonically, sexually or romantically. I could never even ben enough for myself.

EDIT: I found a rope.. Im going to be leaving now and you wont remember me.. I am blessed and cursed that when I leave a room, a class, a conversation people forget i was ever there. People forget my name, my face, my identity I am forgetable.

Thanks for reading and goodbye truly <3

~Lillie...

Any reason why you can't order SN again?

 

[Uzera]

I'm so sorry for the life you had. This kind of fucked me up a little bit and I won't forget you. I am so sorry your life turned out like this. May you rest in peace Lillie.