SipSop
Arcanist
- May 7, 2020
- 483
This picture, combined with some comments on youtube about what psychopaths do made me wake up from the spell.
The reason why I am here is because I fell in love with somebody and now, a year later after non-stop thinking about them the spell is broken.
I realised I was played from the beginning. I was used for attention, like a whore, till they found somebody better, discarded like a banana peel.
It is not just a failed love story.
I was cooked and tormented at slow heat for fun. I see it now. She even admitted that she saw that I was suffering that she pretended to not see it.
I didn't open up to anybody, but I felt safe, secure to open up completely only to let the Trojan Horse in.
I was not suicidal before I met her. I even entered the psych ward because of it.
The suffering she caused me for fun, extended to my family as the toxicity spilled on them to.
Look at me, a year later I am still loving and they moved on like nothing happened.
My mind and emotions are frail now, and I am like a abused pup around women. She drilled slowly into my confidence by not acknowledging when I did something right but always punishing what was perceived as wrong. I was conditioned to behave till slowly I lost all my dignity and self-esteem as a man. Thinking that I am worth nothing, that I had no qualities, what was initially praised as quality later used to be ignored and discarded, that my chracter is good for nothing and that my looks are at fault.
She destroyed me from the inside out.
She rotted the core of my being for the lolz.
I woke up.
What should I do with myself now...?
Love, one of the most important thing for humans was a deception, a play for fun...
