I fear that now I have whatever I need, mine will end on impulse. I have high highs and very low lows. Part of it.. I guess then there's that part of me thinking that's ok if that's how it had to be. I make so many dumb impulsive decisions that make so much difference in my overall life day to day I'm over it
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Sensei
剣道家
- Nov 4, 2019
- 6,336
Are you bipolar? Your behaviour sounds typically bipolar. Although I can suppress my imulsivity in every-day life fairly well, I'm very impulsive when it comes to suicide, though. I've made two impulsive attempts and I often have to struggle with strong suicidal impulses. I try to reason with myself when that happens, and it works quite well. Others take a cold shower, a long walk, and what have you. Do you have any technique for controlling your suicidal impulses?
Despondent
Archangel
- Dec 20, 2019
- 6,777
catpissmartini
Member
- Feb 5, 2020
- 11
My situation exactly! SN arrives tomorrow and I know I won't have the balls to do it right away, however whenever my "self-worth" is "triggered" I run to the liquor store although I should've gotten sober a long time ago. I just know that having SN around is just a matter of time before the bomb goes off again.
I feel you man,I am so dumb and impulse .my father is same as me i think I got it from him.i have no friends no life .it's been 24 years ,i am with no genuine friend.i push people away but hoping they would come back.many people say you're dumb because of yourself but genetics also matters .my father is same as me he has no friends but he is so arrogant that he doesn't care all this. All I can do is stay quiet in society ,I do this because I don't want to open my dumb mouth but everyone thinks I am so calm and don't care.
