I'm already dead.

[allKae]

I'm dead inside, every day I think about suicide, I think about ending it all... but I don't because I don't have any concrete reasons - for now - I can't stand living like this anymore and continuing to feel anguish, hatred, and anger towards myself, knowing that everything is my fault. I feel angry just thinking about it.I'm dead

I wanted to be happy with the person I love so much, but every day I'm drowning myself in something to make my thoughts stop.But nothing else matters.I'm tired of all this and tired of living, but if someone wanted to kill me, I would die fighting for my life, because the union The only one who can take my life is myself.

I just want to find concrete answers so that I can leave once and for all.

Thanks for reading My feelings and thoughts :)