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takezo
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- Mar 22, 2020
- 10
I feel so alone because no one around me can see the things the same way as i see
On the same boat. Just my pop is a backstabbing prick and my sibling is my entire life. They dun want me dead cuz of a promise I made when our mother died when we were little. They hurt whenever they see me struggling and mentioning death like it would be a sweet release. They're damaged in their own way, but sadly they are pro-life and abhor the thought of suicide.I feel so alone because I am alone.
I have pushed away everyone that ever meant anything to me.
All I have is my dad,who is my entire world. He's been through so much tragedy in his life and I had promised not to put him through more. But now I can't stop thinking of how it will be when he dies. I can't stop crying and the only way to cope seems to be in ensuring I go first, although that goes against everything I had promised.
If just thinking about life without him is this unbearable,how would it be if I did hold out to spare him the pain?
yes, i guess i made this stupid question just bc i'm just weak, typical human behaviourAren't we all?
I don't think it's stupid and I don't think it makes you weak . I often feeling lonely even in company and it's hard when you feel like other people don't understand . Sorry you're feeling this wayyes, i guess i made this stupid question just bc i'm just weak, typical human behaviour