I'm a wreck...

[LateForTheBus]

I just got off the phone with my best friend. I told her I wouldn't be here by the end of the month. (Although, I likely won't see the end of next week.) She and I have both attempted to CTB before, and she made me promise to tell her if I was ever going to attempt again. She understands completely, and I'm not worried about her telling anyone. She's just really upset that I'll be gone. I wish I could end my pain without causing any to those in my life that I truly care about.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least you have someone that you can be open with, without the fear of them interfering. The reality is that even if death upsets people nobody is obligated to continue existing and loss is simply inevitable in life, there is no escaping from death. But it would certainly be ideal to have the option to just disappear and be forgotten about, but anyway best wishes.

 

[LateForTheBus]

At least you have someone that you can be open with, without the fear of them interfering. The reality is that even if death upsets people nobody is obligated to continue existing and loss is simply inevitable in life, there is no escaping from death. But it would certainly be ideal to have the option to just disappear and be forgotten about, but anyway best wishes.

Yes, I do realize that I am fortunate to have her and can talk openly about this without fear of her trying to stop me. I know many others don't have anyone like that in their lives. And you're right, I've stayed on this earth far too long, putting other's needs and emotional health above my own. I'm glad to be putting mine first now. Thank you for the reply. I hope a peaceful method becomes available to all soon as I know you've been hanging on much longer than you've wanted.