im a pussy

[AintNoWayOut]

i want to die, im sick of participating in this rigged bullshit, but then i remember that it requires a method, and executing said method, and enduring a level of pain and discomfort and having the mental fortitude to push through my survival instinct... and then i feel sick to my stomach and helpless.

i need a pill to take or a button to press. or a doctor compassionate enough to put me out of my misery. fuck....

or i simply need to read up on more methods since im becoming more serious about it now. the last thing i remember setting my mind on was a method involving inhaling helium i believe, which i read is supposed to be quick and painless, but that seems too good to be true. i just need to grow the balls to really start planning something.

 

[evolutionerror]

SI isn't easy to overcome. I don't think this makes you weak.

 

[PurpleMonkey]

"P****" is socially measured, by which I mean it's total bullshit. You have nothing to prove to anyone, especially something as personal as one's own mortality and happiness.

Fearing death is, like, the most normal thing to fear lol. No shame in that, stranger.

 

[AintNoWayOut]

"P****" is socially measured, by which I mean it's total bullshit. You have nothing to prove to anyone, especially something as personal as one's own mortality and happiness.

Fearing death is, like, the most normal thing to fear lol. No shame in that, stranger.

i just wish i could get it over with because im sick of living this meaningless, empty existence full of bitterness and envy. speaking of which, im envious of people who are able to go through with their methods and leave this shit world behind.

 

[PurpleMonkey]

i just wish i could get it over with because im sick of living this meaningless, empty existence full of bitterness and envy. speaking of which, im envious of people who are able to go through with their methods and leave this shit world behind.

For many people, the pain is either a negligible payoff or an attraction. I'm not going to put words in your mouth but if you're hesitant, it could be a sign that you still have some business left unattended. Would I be wrong in assuming that?

 

[Sunset Limited]

I posted a goodbye thread about two weeks ago but I'm still here. I will try again soon. No one is judging you here. Don't judge yourself. We cannot control fear. Remember that fear is part of the CTB attempt, it's normal. Fear is not belong to you, so you are not a pussy because you are afraid :) It's just an ancient impulse.

 

[Zegers]

Listen, my life has been empty for years and yet, the SI is there. It's not a question of being a coward, it's simply a program that we humans have implanted by default.

 

[makethepainstop]

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I never understood calling some one p---y. Are they kidding, ever seen a woman give birth! OUCH to the tenth power! As for having balls, guys with more testerone fear nothing. So a guy who isn't acting aggressively enough, gets told he doesn't have the balls to do something.

 

[FuneralCry]

Unfortunately we do live in a world where leaving it behind is so unnecessarily difficult after all. I hate how it can be so hard to be free from everything, of course dying should just be as easy as just choosing to never wake again, it can certainly be tiring how ctb involves excessive planning and of course there is the SI which can just prolong our suffering.

We really shouldn't have to struggle so much in finally leaving this world. I also envy those who are gone and don't have to deal with any of this anymore. They are not trapped in this cruel world having to suffer endlessly and to me they really are the lucky ones. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[AintNoWayOut]

For many people, the pain is either a negligible payoff or an attraction. I'm not going to put words in your mouth but if you're hesitant, it could be a sign that you still have some business left unattended. Would I be wrong in assuming that?

hardly. all that keeps me here is the bleakest hope for "improvement", which is basically just experiencing something new like a relationship, some family, and cowardice.