catscradle
Now I will destroy the whole world
- Jul 10, 2020
- 85
I'm 25 and have wanted to and tried to ctb for most of my life. My girlfriend is 30 and has wanted to and tried to ctb for a long time- hell our first date was initially postponed because she had to go to inpatient. and I'm a fucking hypocrite because I don't want her ctb. I can justify it to myself all I want- *it's just temporary for her, she's so smart and valuable and people love her*- but I know its the same shit people say to me and I know that's all false. and I'm vocally pro-choice, which to me includes the choice of death. but I can't shake the urge to keep her around.
i can't be the only one who's dealt with this. how do you reconcile the urge to die with the want for someone else to stay alive?
i can't be the only one who's dealt with this. how do you reconcile the urge to die with the want for someone else to stay alive?