Venting I’m a horrible human who doesn’t deserve to live

[willitpass]

I've hurt people I care about in ways that I'll never forgive myself for. I have no one to blame but myself. I hate who I am. I do not deserve the good things in my life. I do not deserve to exist because it hurts those in my life. I nearly downed my heart medication last night and I'm incredibly disappointed in myself that I didn't. But I'm stuck in the dichotomy of staying alive causing those around me pain and killing myself causing those around me pain. There is no winning.

 

[_L_]

If you regret what you said you did, that means you have a heart, it means you are aware of your feelings and the feelings of the people you care about. This is a good thing after all. In order to become a better person we sometimes screw up things in this path.

 

[whywere]

I 100% agree with what @JimmyPage said and I could not have said it any better, so wonderful!

Walter

 

[Cherry_BB]

I know how you feel. personally, the sooner I commit, the sooner I can stop being a burden. whatever you decide to do, I wish you luck.