Venting I'm a failure

[Judah]

I'm a failure, and it's the truth, can anyone understand me? I don't even understand myself. I can't even keep my mind at peace, because I've never had peace now that I think about it.

I feel like everyone is making fun of me, or that people's rudeness towards me will appear at any moment. I still can't find a job and I think at this point it means I'm not employable

The truth is my mental decline is quite evident if someone stopped to observe me, so I don't blame them. Unfortunately I am no longer employable, and now I just sleep to keep my mind at peace for a couple of hours.

I feel like I'm a mistake, that people don't want to be 2 centimeters close to me, that life constantly makes fun of me.

And now I expect nothing, absolutely nothing, and I hate the fact that I'm not able to take a rope right now.

 

[Lulzacruel]

as a schizotypal, i've always felt very isolated like you

i hope you can attain peace, with medical treatment or CTB

i suggest only CTB if you can't find treatment or treatment is not working for you

 

[Nephis]

I'm a failure, and it's the truth, can anyone understand me? I don't even understand myself. I can't even keep my mind at peace, because I've never had peace now that I think about it.

I feel like everyone is making fun of me, or that people's rudeness towards me will appear at any moment. I still can't find a job and I think at this point it means I'm not employable

The truth is my mental decline is quite evident if someone stopped to observe me, so I don't blame them. Unfortunately I am no longer employable, and now I just sleep to keep my mind at peace for a couple of hours.

I feel like I'm a mistake, that people don't want to be 2 centimeters close to me, that life constantly makes fun of me.

And now I expect nothing, absolutely nothing, and I hate the fact that I'm not able to take a rope right now.

You are no such thing, you are beautiful, caring, you do that which is such a heavy weight to carry. You are a friend, both in soul and body, I hope you feel better, that you no longer feel this terrible suffering, that you can feel peace in your pain, I'm here and so is all of your friends here.

Please remember you are someone great, for we care for you, we care for you when we reach the shores, the starry nights, and whatever blue skies we meet under. Let us be friends with no anxiety of hatred, for I only wish to offer you kindness.

~For you I hope, peace wherever you may go

 

[MrDarkness]

I feel the same, I got an appointment for therapy some time next week, I'm still extremely suicidal, I feel useless and weak. Hopefully they can fix me, If not, the rope is calling

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really awful and tiring feeling trapped in that situation, it's certainly so horrible to me how in this world cruel humans just create even more suffering but anyway I wish you the best.