I'll try go to therapy

[narval]

I don't have too much to lose. I know well my flaws, not so well my strengths but there's something. The main issue is how to start and how to overcome my flaws & the feeling of being a failure. It is hard to do, even try, anything if you really believe you are a walking shit without future. It doesn't feels like i believe i'm shit, it's like i KNOW im shit.
I'm broken. I need someone who, theorycally of course, works trying to fix mental catastrophes. I'm not mistrustful about psychologists itself, but idk if there's anyone cappable of dealing with me.

Tomorrow i'll go as today i can't (Righ here right now it's around 21:00). I saw a promising place.

At least i've an ol' reliable plan if bad things goes bad: runaway without looking back

 

[noname223]

I don't have too much to lose. I know well my flaws, not so well my strengths but there's something. The main issue is how to start and how to overcome my flaws & the feeling of being a failure. It is hard to do, even try, anything if you really believe you are a walking shit without future. It doesn't feels like i believe i'm shit, it's like i KNOW im shit.
I'm broken. I need someone who, theorycally of course, works trying to fix mental catastrophes. I'm not mistrustful about psychologists itself, but idk if there's anyone cappable of dealing with me.

Tomorrow i'll go as today i can't (Righ here right now it's around 21:00). I saw a promising place.

At least i've an ol' reliable plan if bad things goes bad: runaway without looking back

I think this is a good plan if you try to get better. I currently see my third therapist. It is important that you can trust him and being able to open up. There needs to be a good chemistry. If the first one does not fit don't let it discourage you.

I hope you find a fitting one :) Good luck

 

[Manaaja]

Please, try to find a psychologist who has specialized in the problems you have. For example, if you had a shitty childhood and parents, it's no use to go to someone who thinks "Mother knows best, and parents are the epitome of good and selfishness!". I have personally had that experience and it sucks a lot. Or if you have something like severe insomnia, it's no use going to a psychologist who will just say "Why don't you just wear earplugs?".

I hope you are able to find a psychologist that suits you!

 

[ClaireBear31]

There's different "types" of therapy too... I saw one lady who told me I needed to use essential oils and think positive thoughts, so that didn't last long. Ha ha. As an atheist, I find that I personally do well with "Existential"-type therapists who help you find and create your own meaning in life. Hugs to you and best wishes, keep us posted on how it goes!

 

[narval]

Please, try to find a psychologist who has specialized in the problems you have. For example, if you had a shitty childhood and parents, it's no use to go to someone who thinks "Mother knows best, and parents are the epitome of good and selfishness!". I have personally had that experience and it sucks a lot. Or if you have something like severe insomnia, it's no use going to a psychologist who will just say "Why don't you just wear earplugs?".

I hope you are able to find a psychologist that suits you!

I saw a center in wich seems to work various psichologists and they works with depression, anxiety, eating disorders and so. I'll go to ask if they work with people like me. If they directly don't, perhaps they can tell someone. If yes, let's see what happens.

 

[Manaaja]

I saw a center in wich seems to work various psichologists and they works with depression, anxiety, eating disorders and so. I'll go to ask if they work with people like me. If they directly don't, perhaps they can tell someone. If yes, let's see what happens.

That sounds a lot better than what is available here! Sounds like your chances of finding the right psychologist for you are high! I hope it all goes well!

 

[narval]

There's different "types" of therapy too... I saw one lady who told me I needed to use essential oils and think positive thoughts, so that didn't last long. Ha ha. As an atheist, I find that I personally do well with "Existential"-type therapists who help you find and create your own meaning in life. Hugs to you and best wishes, keep us posted on how it goes!

That positive wonderfully type of therapy it isn't for me. Too close to toxic shitty positivism :(

That sounds a lot better than what is available here! Sounds like your chances of finding the right psychologist for you are high! I hope it all goes well!

It's the good of not going to public healthcare. Here it's common to say: spend 1 month for any response in public healthcare or spend 100€ in private center.

My economy it isn't happy right now

 

[Smart No More]

I don't have too much to lose. I know well my flaws, not so well my strengths but there's something. The main issue is how to start and how to overcome my flaws & the feeling of being a failure. It is hard to do, even try, anything if you really believe you are a walking shit without future. It doesn't feels like i believe i'm shit, it's like i KNOW im shit.
I'm broken. I need someone who, theorycally of course, works trying to fix mental catastrophes. I'm not mistrustful about psychologists itself, but idk if there's anyone cappable of dealing with me.

Tomorrow i'll go as today i can't (Righ here right now it's around 21:00). I saw a promising place.

At least i've an ol' reliable plan if bad things goes bad: runaway without looking back

I hope you manage to find a decent foem of therapy. I know what you mean when you express your concerns about finding the right one as I don't think many medical professionals are inclined to really put the effort into digging deep enough through a persons background and the intricacies in it. They tend to take the easier route of testing meds. Throwing them at the wall to see what sticks so to speak. The good thing for you is that you have identified what's at the core of your problem and that gives them something to work with. Many go in with no leads which is a recipe for potential disaster.

 

[narval]

Fucking covid. With that excuse, lately more and more places demands appointment. the receptionist seemed nice but still... damn it.

Now that I've requested one in their web, i only can wait for response.

 

[narval]

They answered sooner than i expected. I already have an appointment, it's the next tuesday. Let's see what happens

 

[motel rooms]

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So this is what you really look like! Good luck...

 

[narval]

So this is what you really look like! Good luck...

i'm not that dark

 

[motel rooms]

i'm not that dark

Just don't do this to your therapist:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/proxy.php?image=https%3A%2F%2Fmedia2.giphy.com%2Fmedia%2FEq49yQGJL835K%2F200.gif&hash=04ddc4cb0e0e6f94efa097c1b7e8172b

 

[narval]

Just don't do this to your therapist:

i don't bite. By now.

 

[Incognito?]

I don't have too much to lose. I know well my flaws, not so well my strengths but there's something. The main issue is how to start and how to overcome my flaws & the feeling of being a failure. It is hard to do, even try, anything if you really believe you are a walking shit without future. It doesn't feels like i believe i'm shit, it's like i KNOW im shit.
I'm broken. I need someone who, theorycally of course, works trying to fix mental catastrophes. I'm not mistrustful about psychologists itself, but idk if there's anyone cappable of dealing with me.

Tomorrow i'll go as today i can't (Righ here right now it's around 21:00). I saw a promising place.

At least i've an ol' reliable plan if bad things goes bad: runaway without looking back

Nobody is shit. I think its very important to find a therapist, who is able to give you full acceptance. You ll find the right one, i whish you the best.

 

[narval]

It's a bit late, but well. This tuesday i went. The psychologist seemed serious and i told her my main mental shits (including my thoughts of CTB, but nothing about SaSu). It was about my background, there wasn't too drama even when she asked about if i had an inminent plan of CTB (i've one but in standby).

A good thing was that she didn't judge anything (more probably, she didn't say any judgment) expept the understandable moment where she was judging if i'll try CTB (it's even required by law/protocol, i think). As i'm here i pass the check, i guess.

The next week i'll go again. As far as i know, the firsts sessions will be what the hell is going here and then, lets see what can we do with that we have

 

[Seiba]

It's a bit late, but well. This tuesday i went. The psychologist seemed serious and i told her my main mental shits (including my thoughts of CTB, but nothing about SaSu). It was about my background, there wasn't too drama even when she asked about if i had an inminent plan of CTB (i've one but in standby).

A good thing was that she didn't judge anything (more probably, she didn't say any judgment) expept the understandable moment where she was judging if i'll try CTB (it's even required by law/protocol, i think). As i'm here i pass the check, i guess.

The next week i'll go again. As far as i know, the firsts sessions will be what the hell is going here and then, lets see what can we do with that we have

Cool to hear your experience with suicidality mentioned wasn't too bad. Depending on the person you have to be really careful with that stuff, but with how she handled it she doesn't sound too bad in regards to hospitalizing.

 

[Angi]

As far as i know, the firsts sessions will be what the hell is going here and then, lets see what can we do with that we have

Glad to hear you feel well taken care of! I am sure there is something worth having inside yourself, and I really hope your new therapist can help you on your way. For me, it has been "what the hell is going on here" on and off. I really hope you can trust them, so hell will be easier to surf.