28 F
I want to be a greedy cunt and go for two, if you don't mind.
Will I ever find love?
Does she find me attractive at all?
First question is A Ready for Love spread
Page of Swords (R)
Knight of Pentacles
VI of Wands
The Empress
The Wheel
Queen of Pentacles
You're being a bit hasty in your negative judgement, love takes time and effort and rushing through it won't help (Page of Swords Reversed)
the Knight of Pentacles represents hard work and effort which is pretty self explanatory here.
You're kind of fearing success at this point, you don't know if that success is what you really want right now, you're scared of loving in a way, even though The Empress suggests that your heart is ready for loving, you can give great things to the people you really love, even tho your mind is constantly bothered by the changing of things and the floor crumbling under your feet at this moment. You have a very practical side tho, which helps in deciding upon these matters, ultimately you're very down to heart when it comes to love which is a great sign.
Second question is a Compatibility spread:
Knight of Pentacles (again, you really are a hard working type)
Page of Cups
Strength
VIII of Pentacles
The Magician (R)
The Sun (R)
Page of Wands
What do you think they want from this relationship? Maybe she isn't taking it as seriously as you are and you should clarify on that with her.
Luckily you have the Strength and pragmatism to do so.
Are you by any chance in the same work or study field? VIII of Pentacles suggests similarity in education and forming
Also how much of her feeling towards you are just your own theory? I'm not only talking about positive feelings, maybe you thought she had negative feelings towards you while she actually didn't, are you out of touch with this person? That could be a reason.
Sun reversed confirms that you might be just seeing clouds, but don't despair, the sun is still there. Page of Wands in the end tells us that there's still a white page between you and her, all of your story is still to explore and you still have chances to take and dices to roll as does she, though unknown the path is worth exploring.