Venting I'll quit alcohol (PART II)

[WornOutLife]

As some of you might know, HERE I had said that I would quit alcohol but unfortunately I didn't. I don't drink everyday but alcohol is my solution to escape from my hellish reality.

I've started to work out, teach English again, go out more and even talk to more people but still, during the night time, I feel so depressed and bored that I decide to drink alcohol.

Yet, today, as I'm drinking alcohol right now, I've decided that this is enough! Hangovers suck! This will be my LAST NIGHT DRINKING ALCOHOL!

What do I get from this? Just some happy hours and then I'm more suicidal than ever, looking at every single ctb method and crying all day long. This is nonsense!

If I'm gonna ctb, alcohol must not be part of it.

Anyway, I really needed to vent about this.

Thanks a bunch for reading me and I hope my posts can help you out from time to time.

Hugs and love,

Matt

 

[botanormal]

I'm so sorry drinking has had such a negative effect on you. Alcohol can feel so good, yet can bring so much more pain at the same time. If it causes you more pain than it does happiness, you're making the right decision in quitting. It can be such a difficult thing to let go, but I'm wishing you the best of luck on your journey! If you ever need anything, you know my PMs are always open for you. I'm sending you the biggest hugs!

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm so sorry drinking has had such a negative effect on you. Alcohol can feel so good, yet can bring so much more pain at the same time. If it causes you more pain than it does happiness, you're making the right decision in quitting. It can be such a difficult thing to let go, but I'm wishing you the best of luck on your journey! If you ever need anything, you know my PMs are always open for you. I'm sending you the biggest hugs!

Thank you so much for your reply, bota-chan!
You know I love drinking but...I should only do it at special occasions such as...meeting you IRL! haha

Hugs and love.

 

[Life_and_Death]

sorry about the feelings, i get that. it gets worse with bad highs. i found something (literally minutes before deciding quitting isnt for me lol) anyway i hope that maybe it can help you. i know quitting weed will most likely help me but i have no desire to quit

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maybe also try an app to count sober days. the weed ones looked entertaining but thats what made me change my mind, the "achievements" werent for me. i hope it works out better for you

 

[botanormal]

Thank you so much for your reply, bota-chan!
You know I love drinking but...I should only do it at special occasions such as...meeting you IRL! haha

Hugs and love.

Haha I completely agree, it's good to pace yourself with these things! I'm sure it will feel better too, if you only drink on special occasions, so I think you're making a good decision. Thank you for being so sweet, too! I hope it all goes okay for you, I'm wishing you the best!

 

[*Hope*]

Good luck man!
Though I feel like a glass of whiskey 1 day of the week isn't that bad, it's only bad when you drink every other day. Then again everything starts from small steps :D

 

[ansiedad]

You can win this fight!

 

[Spitfire]

I love you man!

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

My current problem is my cravings between binges are getting stronger. I'm less in a depressive spell, more in an obsessive spell (about drinking). Every evening without I'm feeling deprived, or as AA would have it, restless, irritable and discontent...

I'd drink more but I've gotta ration my money. Then this stresses me out cos I've gotta basically spend as little as possible on food to have enough to binge here and there, which isn't even satisfying me!

I think I'd hit up a meeting ASAP if there wasn't a lockdown in my country.

 

[nowhere2befound]

As some of you might know, HERE I had said that I would quit alcohol but unfortunately I didn't. I don't drink everyday but alcohol is my solution to escape from my hellish reality.

I've started to work out, teach English again, go out more and even talk to more people but still, during the night time, I feel so depressed and bored that I decide to drink alcohol.

Yet, today, as I'm drinking alcohol right now, I've decided that this is enough! Hangovers suck! This will be my LAST NIGHT DRINKING ALCOHOL!

What do I get from this? Just some happy hours and then I'm more suicidal than ever, looking at every single ctb method and crying all day long. This is nonsense!

If I'm gonna ctb, alcohol must not be part of it.

Anyway, I really needed to vent about this.

Thanks a bunch for reading me and I hope my posts can help you out from time to time.

Hugs and love,

Matt

Keep up with it bro! Try running in night when you are bored. Just do it instead of drinking alcohol. Just try it. No hangover guranteed

 

[Spitfire]

The hangover! Keep focus on that one part of it, and wether or not you want that in your life?

 

[Sakura94]

Did you find any AA meetings? I really think it will help when you have something to commit to and go to.

 

[NodusTollens]

You can do this!
Just don't forget to celebrate your victories- it's a process.

 

[Aap]

ditto on the AA - a support system can be Of extreme help.