I'll probably go for a few more years before ctb

[NoPunIntended]

I'm currently applying for jobs and will join the workforce soon, which might seem like good news. Not for me tho, because I really dont wanna. Since I know that life will probably get worse from this point, I'll probably ctb. Not yet tho. I know that my life will turn out shit, because I cant manage to find a girlfriend, my family is turning their backs on me and I can't make real friends. I got some cool hobbies now, but I dont think that they compensate the fact that I feel lonely as fuck. They will do for now tho. That's why my current plan is to work for some years, save up some money and when I feel ready, I'll spend it for some stupid stuff to have a little fun or maybe buy some opioids before ctb. I'll most probably do it sooner or later tho

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck in your plans.

 

[rozeske]

Good luck in your future plans.

 

[FireFox]

I'm currently applying for jobs and will join the workforce soon, which might seem like good news. Not for me tho, because I really dont wanna. Since I know that life will probably get worse from this point, I'll probably ctb. Not yet tho. I know that my life will turn out shit, because I cant manage to find a girlfriend, my family is turning their backs on me and I can't make real friends. I got some cool hobbies now, but I dont think that they compensate the fact that I feel lonely as fuck. They will do for now tho. That's why my current plan is to work for some years, save up some money and when I feel ready, I'll spend it for some stupid stuff to have a little fun or maybe buy some opioids before ctb. I'll most probably do it sooner or later tho

@NoPunIntended How old are you? I plan to give life one more chance to get it right and I plan to kill myself in my 30s. I am 26 and I am tired of life and I feel it is not for me.

I am same boat as you I am always unsuccessful with men , my relatives are just awful and I go out a lot by myself visting places but still I am lonely too with no friends.
I hope things work out for you
Love
FireFox

 

[permanently tired]

I'm currently applying for jobs and will join the workforce soon, which might seem like good news. Not for me tho, because I really dont wanna. Since I know that life will probably get worse from this point, I'll probably ctb. Not yet tho. I know that my life will turn out shit, because I cant manage to find a girlfriend, my family is turning their backs on me and I can't make real friends. I got some cool hobbies now, but I dont think that they compensate the fact that I feel lonely as fuck. They will do for now tho. That's why my current plan is to work for some years, save up some money and when I feel ready, I'll spend it for some stupid stuff to have a little fun or maybe buy some opioids before ctb. I'll most probably do it sooner or later tho

I had a similar thought of living out my 20s , although I doubt I'll find something worth living for. I'm just not interested in participating in society or living as a whole . It's all so boring to me