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broken beyond repair
- Sep 7, 2019
- 52
Mom and stepdad are out of the house until sunday. There's not really anyone who would visit so this is the perfect time to do it; I'll leave all of my dog's food out so she'll have enough to eat until they come back.
I really want to take this opportunity but I'm scared. I'm so tired of being too scared to follow through with my plans, because every time I give up and continue to live life ends up disappointing me again.
If I miss this chance I'll never forgive myself. I want to stop being such a fucking coward. I want my body to realize that death is the best thing for me because the only alternative is being miserable.
I really want to take this opportunity but I'm scared. I'm so tired of being too scared to follow through with my plans, because every time I give up and continue to live life ends up disappointing me again.
If I miss this chance I'll never forgive myself. I want to stop being such a fucking coward. I want my body to realize that death is the best thing for me because the only alternative is being miserable.