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would choice to live or to never have existed

  • I would choose to exist

    Votes: 5 7.5%
  • i choose to never exist

    Votes: 58 86.6%
  • not sure

    Votes: 4 6.0%

  • Total voters
    67
Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,040
This will depend on how much you have suffered during your lifetime , you might lean toward never having existed to avoid the inevitable pain and struggles of life.

For me, existence seems more like a burden than a gift.

Some might choose non-existence because they see it as a way to escape the inevitable suffering of life. They may feel that the pain, struggles, and disappointments outweigh any potential joys or pleasures. For those who feel trapped in their circumstances or have experienced deep trauma, non-existence might feel like a form of relief from the constant weight of living.

Others might choose non-existence due to the belief that it offers an end to the cycle of need, anxiety, and loss that life entails. For them, life can feel like a series of temporary fixes for a deeper, never-ending sense of dissatisfaction or anguish.

Ultimately, the choice to never have existed could stem from a profound desire to avoid the inherent pain of existence, and a belief that non-existence offers peace from the harsh realities of life.
 
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MikuFOST

Despite Everything, It’s still you!
Feb 7, 2025
8
the only reason i say i voted i would choose to exist would definitely be because of the couple of good moments iv had in my life however life has not gotten better and those good moments are far and few between and are not enough to keep me from catching the bus but at least i experienced those good moments
 
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DarkDays97

Member
Jan 27, 2024
7
Since as young as I could remember, I have been unhappy. Life has thrown everything it possibly can at me. You want to have an illness? have many more that impact your life. You want to have friends? Nah, I'll make your brain so you can't even communicate properly. List goes on. I strongly believe that some people are just not cut out to be alive and I am in that category. No meds, help will change the fact I just don't want to be helped. I fake that I want to get better so I get my allowance from the government to pay my rent. But I don't want to get better and I always do think that I wish I wasn't here or never have been here.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
915
I choose to never exist at all cus I can't ever regret not existing if I didn't exist at all and I would no longer suffer.
 
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windows7enjoyer

windows7enjoyer

:3
Dec 23, 2024
14
Eh, in my opinion, never existing is better because if I chose to exist, I would've also chosen for my soul to suffer too. so yeah, don't want that to happen
 
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lucaricoomio

lucaricoomio

Agoraphobic NEETs rise up ✊
Feb 3, 2025
15
Definitely never existed at all, would've saved my loved ones a lot of pain and the false hope that I'll 'get better'.
 
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martinso67

All human rights are important
Feb 5, 2021
295
I would choose "no" in existing as a human.
I have no problem with existence in general. It's only that being a human means in my opinion a too long life expectancy (being a cat for example would be about 20 years) and that for all your needs you need other human who care foremost about their interest/world view.
Also animals don't have the consciousness that death will come and that one could also kill one selfes like in humans.
 
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RiverOfLife

Member
Nov 7, 2024
97
While I have had some good times I believe that the bad outweighs the good. So I would rather have never existed in the first place.
 
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death_by_life

Member
Sep 28, 2024
26
I chose never to have existed because that's what was supposed to happen. My parents should never have had children to begin with, but there was a gap of more than a decade between my brothers and I, so it's not like they didn't have time to think about it. And my mom told me my dad made her sleep with him, and that's how I was born. So they didn't even want me. She told my brothers that if it weren't for them, she'd have run away a long time ago. So, not only do I have my own neglect from them, I also carry all their resentments and poor mental health. I don't want to live this way. And yet, I am responsible for some non-human beings here, and while there are people in place that will take care of them, it will probably still be really disruptive for them, and I can't guarantee where they'll eventually end up. So I'm here for now, until I can find a suitable way out.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,996
I would have chosen to never have existed

Next best thing and the only thing I have a chance at is to exit this hell asap by my own future actions

But I didn't have a choice nobody was given a choice as this nightmare was imposed on every human,
a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain


Did I have more of a choice than the trillion trillion sentient animals bugs fish eaten alive ? No. But I'm just a fuckin bug fish rat fly . I have a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain

I have to look at only what can I realistically do to escape this hell called life to non-existence asap

They made it a crime for me to pay anyone to assist me so I only have what I can get my hands brain and body to do . Wishing hoping in magic or time travel or gods to help me won't do anything because those are fictional
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,124
I'd choose to never exist
 
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always_sad

Member
Feb 6, 2025
29
Suffering is an inevitable part of life so it does not bother me. I cannot imagine non-existence, so I would not choose it.
My problem is that I feel like there's something wrong with my brain. I survived child abuse and I've always felt like there's something "wrong" with me, that I am different from an average person. I tried self therapy and seeing therapists (that were not worth the money) and I've learned a lot, yet it still has not improved my life and it never made me appreciate life more or whatever. I became even more numb, bitter and disillusioned. I have no motivation to continue existing. I just wish things would have turned out differently and I wasn't mistreated when my brain was still developing. I would choose existing, but under different circumstances.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
4,467
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cme-dme

cme-dme

Ready to go to bed
Feb 1, 2025
300
I think the common consensus on a suicide forum will be pretty obvious ;) The fact that humans are the only species on Earth that can contemplate suicide and its own death just makes it clear to me that we were put on this Earth to suffer.
 
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DefyGravity

DefyGravity

Member
Jan 30, 2025
12
The science is still out on whether we're the only species, but regardless, I look at life as a roller coaster. It starts slowly, then has a terrifying drop, followed by lots of ups and downs and before you know it, the ride is over.

I'm glad I visited Earth, but I would want to live here.
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
736
I see nonexistence as a gift
 
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Prism

Prism

🌈💎
Jul 15, 2024
121
I'd choose to never have existed at all, safe from both life and death.
 
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S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,534
It's a no brainer...life has been so full of suffering,and pain and tears for me that I wish i never existed to experience this shit.
 
OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Arcanist
Nov 25, 2024
437
This is probably the wrong answer considering I keep on messing things up but if I never existed, I would've never met the love of my life. And even if that is the reason for me to have ended up where I am now, I would want to exist again to have a chance at that happening all over again and do it right. Just call me a lovesick loser, I know ...
 
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Corvette90

Member
Jan 2, 2025
45
💯 to never exist. not in this body anyway. I feel so trapped. Maybe exist if I'm a completely different person, one that is healthy physically and mentally.
 
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lawr

lawr

Member
Feb 21, 2025
20
Despite how I've suffered throughout life, I would still choose to live, for one reason and one reason only, which is love. I don't know how I became this way but ever since I was little I knew I could only be truly happy in love, and conversely, constantly miserable without it. To me, there is nothing more beautiful, inspiring, and comforting than love and acceptance, and any suffering (within reason) is worth it in the end if I can find my soulmate.
 
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foreverstardust

Member
Feb 5, 2025
49
The only thing stopping me is the fact that my death would destroy my aunt, I'm trying my best to hold out until she goes first, but if I could just never exist in the first place then there wouldn't be a me to hurt her this way.