If you were going to give yourself the best day you could before ctb what would you do?

[toanachreoninhell]

I'm going to end it in a a few days. I'm a serially emotionally abusive person and a cheat.

I have already given my partner my bank details so that they can have some help when I'm gone.

I was depressed before I screwed everything up and I have given myself a reason to hate myself and a reason to die.

So, if you were going to ctb what would you do on your last days?

I have no passport so leaving the country isn't an option.

 

[ma0]

Shut any and all possible human contact out of my life (besides those online, of course) and stay in one place, doing whatever the fuck I want, until it's time for me to commit, which would probably be at around 2 or 3 AM.

 

[Crow_88]

Eating good food would definitely be part of it. And spending time in nature to recall what the Earth feels like.

 

[divinemistress36]

A bunch of drugs . Thats all I can come up with

 

[UninformedLover]

I would go to the movie theater and watch one final movie (I love going to the movies) and then I would either go eat out at a restaurant or eat my favorite fast food. Then I would come home, watch my favorite tv show/movies, play with my cats a bit, talk to my friend one last time, and then ctb.

 

[toanachreoninhell]

Eating good food would definitely be part of it. And spending time in nature to recall what the Earth feels like.

Good food is a nice idea.

I plan to end it looking at a local lake.

 

[pretentioussuika]

Eating good food would definitely be part of it. And spending time in nature to recall what the Earth feels like.

My thoughts exactly. I can't imagine having a "good day" anymore, but the most content i can remember being was when i was out seeing natural phenomenon.

 

[toanachreoninhell]

Fuck it just taken an overnight of paracetamol. Good night all.

 

[LivingANDDying26]

I would spend it eating lots of great food. Probably go to a hotel or smthin. Swim. Be stoned all day. Read fanfic. Just feel free. Maybe I'll rent a nice Airbnb thats in nature but has an indoor pool.

Like just truly spend a day not worrying about money or anything.

Wow I feel/felt a lightness thinking of such a day. I'm hoping that day comes very very soon.

 

[Zyntkalla]

Like just truly spend a day not worrying about money or anything.

I like the idea of not worrying about money or anything. And I love your profile picture. That is how I feel when i'm going to work. My reason is it never feels like I do enough there and on top of that, I get very few hours currently.

 

[steveholt]

Steak pom frite... a few drinks and then go and take dump outside No.10 right on the doorstep a present for the PM...

 

[PhDone]

I love the idea of a food and drink binge but pissed to know that alcohol could fuck up SN. Would love to just get fucked up. I cant go out the house so movies, music and madness would be great.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me sleeping is the best way to pass the time in this cruel, torturous existence as after all it's the closest to not existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it no matter what, in this existence so futile where there's all this dreadful cruelty and suffering non-existence really is all I can hope for, non-existence is all I personally see as positive and desirable, I don't see existence as good at all rather I see it as the opposite.

I see existence as an abomination and I find it a burden to exist at all, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and I see no value, point and benefit to being conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it capable of suffering to unlimited extents, existence really is so harmful, cruel and painful and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is non-existence where all is gone and forgotten and finally I can be at peace.

 

[MathConspiracy]

My ideal day would be as follows:

1. EAT. I would eat till I fucking burst. Preferably candy and fast food.
2. DRINK. I would down a bottle of champagne before I attempt.

The list was supposed to be longer but there's nothing I really want anymore.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

A downing of a salty drink, the elixir of eternal bliss. The only thing that could give me happiness is knowing I'm finally escaping this hell

 

[Crow_88]

A bunch of drugs . Thats all I can come up with

It's a classic! Not a bad idea at all

 

[frommolecules2stars]

Visiting a national park. Doing a fuck ton of drugs (mostly psychedelics). Eating all of my favorite meals. Listening to my favorite songs. Finish shows/movies/games/books that I started.

 

[AutisticAcademic]

I'd probably tell some people to F off LOL

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

First. I would spend every cent I had on everything I currently want. Games. Gadgets. Stuff.

Then I would eat everything I love, regardless of how it hurts my body.

I would engage in all of my sexual fantasies with consenting partners. Including my own partner.

I would get high as fuck on weed, shrooms, LSD.

watch stuff I love with the people I love.

And maybe, just maybe. Commit some crimes against the fascists. I mean. If I'm gonna die anyway. Might as well take some of them with me lmao

 

[CentreMid]

During the day, I'd want to wander around the lil family-run businesses and shops in the downtown part of my city. I'd love to have a giant cup of mango flavoured bubble tea while I'm at it.

During the evening, I'd love to have one last soccer game (and win, of course) so I can say a silent goodbye to my team (I won't tell them I'm about to go, but I love those ladies more than anyone else in my life rn).

After coming home from my game, I'd take a shower, get dressed up, put my head through the loop of my belt, and go.

 

[FakeProdigy]

Eat some of my favourite food, go on a car ride and listen to my favourite music, maybe play one or 2 games of my favourite game. Make sure my letters are somewhere to be easily found when I'm gone. Play with my cat and make him feel loved one last time. Wear nice clothes. That would be it.

 

[outrider567]

Would probably just involve food, pb & j on dave's killer bread, Raisin Bran, Cinammon Raisin Bagels,Pepperidge Farm Vanilla Pound Cake

 

[Valhala]

All and only thing I would need for my best day is her, nothing else matters. But if I had her and we were together, I wouldn't even do CTB.

 

[FishRain3469]

Like some others.... Drugs and more drugs. A lot of alcohol, some mushrooms, LSD, MDMA, Xanax, Nitrous ..... and... Idk? Lol. My fav music and some fireworks. Bout all I can think of atm. Lol

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

I would make great meals, take photographs of nature, listen to music, swim, read a book, watch movie, talk with people I like...and that's all I'm doing this week. Ready, set, go <o>

 

[ultraparadise]

but pissed to know that alcohol could fuck up SN

I was just thinking about drinking tons of alcohol and then taking SN, I really need to know what do you mean that alcohol could fuck up SN?

I did some research and this is the answer i got:
""Alcohol, especially ethanol, can enhance sodium nitrite's toxic effects by affecting metabolism and increasing the risk of methemoglobinemia. Some cases of intentional poisoning involve sodium nitrite mixed with alcohol.""