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CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
I could have gone to uni, had a solid career, family etc, but I instead went off the rails and have lead a very different life.

The thing is, I have many fantastic memories, even though I also have plenty of bad ones.

If I changed my trajectory, I never would have had all of the good times.

But this is it, this is why I hate "life" so much now. It's boring. It's pointless, and monotonous. The "good ol' days" were exciting, risky and eventful.

Nothing makes sense now, and I don't want any part of it.

You?
 
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hamvil

hamvil

Wizard
Aug 29, 2022
650
I would try to resist again during the moments when I had not control over. After i would try not to bring alll tht anger with me. I suspect that this would make me achieve less of what I have achived but anyway now I lost it so I do not know if getting the spotlight and losing it is better or worse than that not getting it at all. Avoid the anger all i can, be a good person, kinda. I want to be that in my heart i just end up looking the opposite
 
Vizzy

Vizzy

DEAD
May 6, 2023
1,865
I could have gone to uni, had a solid career, family etc, but I instead went off the rails and have lead a very different life.

The thing is, I have many fantastic memories, even though I also have plenty of bad ones.

If I changed my trajectory, I never would have had all of the good times.

But this is it, this is why I hate "life" so much now. It's boring. It's pointless, and monotonous. The "good ol' days" were exciting, risky and eventful.

Nothing makes sense now, and I don't want any part of it.

You?
I want my life to reset, I want to be born in America to a educated family, go to university and want to pursue a basketball career, I just want Michael Jordan or Tom bradly life lol
 
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hopelessdreams

hopelessdreams

life and its opposite
Mar 1, 2022
176
I would've tried harder to stand up against my abusive family and tried to move out as soon as possible. I wouldve tried to make genuine connections with people instead of isolating myself because I now know how much a person needs a supportive circle around them to keep going. I would've asked for help before I damaged my brain permanently.
 
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Little_Suzy

Little_Suzy

Amphibious
May 1, 2023
939
I want my life to reset, I want to be born in America to a educated family, go to university and want to pursue a basketball career, I just want Michael Jordan or Tom bradly life lol

You can be whatever you want in America!

Michael Jordan Lol GIF
Chicago Bulls Basketball GIF
 
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Vizzy

Vizzy

DEAD
May 6, 2023
1,865
You can be whatever you want in America!

Michael Jordan Lol GIF
Chicago Bulls Basketball GIF
I know it is not easy and only some people are blessed with that, I want to be that blessed person

I am always thinking how these people are blessed with a life like this, hard work and lucky
You can be whatever you want in America!

Michael Jordan Lol GIF
Chicago Bulls Basketball GIF
Maybe next life god give me a life like this (if god really exist)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,843
I really wouldn't want to start my existence again. Existing in this world could never be desirable at all, I have the awareness to recognise that existence is nothing more than an unneccesary harm, so the only logical answer to this question for me would be to exit existence as soon as possible. If other people want to suffer then that's fine for them, but existing certainly isn't for me. Being trapped in this hellish world is truly a dreadful punishment which is why it's so cruel for people to procreate as they are creating problems that never needed to exist. Those who never exist, never suffer at all.
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
So so so many if I could start all over again. I'd like to just go back about 22 yrs at the most if I could. But I could still change a lot of things. Minimum amount of time to go back to 2014
 
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endlessagony

Member
Apr 21, 2023
11
The worst part is that I wouldn't change anything. Sure, I could study better and go to uni at 18 instead of 22 but I would have failed.
Right now I have everything I always dreamt of but I'm still miserable. There is no hope in life
 
glitterypearls

glitterypearls

sing me to sleep
Mar 23, 2023
183
all of my problems came after my father died when I was a child, so if I could start it all over again I'd have called CPS on my birth mom and my other relatives who were abusive, then at 18 I'd get my father inheritance and live happily ever after instead of having all of this money as an adult along with trauma because I was so stubborn to call CPS on them.
 
unnormal9

unnormal9

SOLDIER T.
Apr 12, 2023
1,134
First,
Never meet and stay the fuck away from Batemen
Then,
Retain the money wasted on said asswipe, to be used instead for my dead dream.
 

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