Discussion If you could push a button to get rid of your suicidal thoughts, would you? Poll

[Forever Sleep]

If you could get rid of your suicidal thoughts, would you? Do you think it would change how you live? If a part of you wants to hold on to those thoughts, do you suppose full 'recovery' is even possible?

Personally, I've had ideation for so long, it feels like it's a part of my character. Oddly, I don't think it's really affected how I lived. I was very ambitious as a child. It was part of my coping mechanism. So, it didn't really hold me back from trying to live. That's because I've felt like I had to though. I've pretty much always told myself that I can't CTB while certain people are still alive.

But I suppose it's one of the reasons really trying at 'recovery' doesn't interest me. I don't particularly want to change how I think. I suppose because CTB is still my long-term aim.

 

[lordfungington]

would that button equate death? because life isn't made for me.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Voted no. I don't like the idea of no longer having "a way out," of being trapped. I'd rather have suicide always on the table as an option.

 

[Forever Sleep]

would that button equate death? because life isn't made for me.

Sorry, no. In this instance, I'm wondering more whether people would actually want to be rid of their ideation. I agree though. I don't think it would make life itself any easier. Maybe we'd just be stuck feeling unhappy but not suicidal.

 

[Ironborn]

No because I think eventually the thoughts would come back.
My circumstances and life are what made me suicidal so unless you can change my past there isn't really any point.

 

[coolgal82]

would i still have other negative thoughts? because like if you got rid of the suicidal ideation without those they'd just come back, like cleaning up the puddle but not repairing the pipe that is broken and caused it. so idk it depends.

but also its kinda comforting in a weird way and it'd be scary to be without it

 

[Forever Sleep]

would i still have other negative thoughts? because like if you got rid of the suicidal ideation without those they'd just come back, like cleaning up the puddle but not repairing the pipe that is broken and caused it. so idk it depends.

but also its kinda comforting in a weird way and it'd be scary to be without it

I guess that's the issue isn't it? I don't think anyone could live their whole life without at least some negative thoughts. I suppose ideation does feel comforting because it seems like a way out if it really does become overwhelmingly bad.

 

[wCvML2]

Suicidal thoughts for me are not that compulsory, it just makes sense to end it when I sit on it. Getting rid of my ability to think about suicide would be some next level anti-choice tech, I would'nt willingly choose to get rid of the choice to commit suicide or not.

 

[deathneutrality]

Depends.

Would that also rid me of my depression and other mental issues? If so then yeah, of course.. It would be weird since it has been a part of me since i was a little girl but ultimately it would be nice to experience life as a healthy person without violent mood swings or SH etc.

But if its just suicidal thoughts and not the whole spectrum of mental issues, then probably not. It would make it even harder to escape and there would be no comfort in suicidal ideation.

 

[brokeandbroken]

If you could get rid of your suicidal thoughts, would you? Do you think it would change how you live? If a part of you wants to hold on to those thoughts, do you suppose full 'recovery' is even possible?

Personally, I've had ideation for so long, it feels like it's a part of my character. Oddly, I don't think it's really affected how I lived. I was very ambitious as a child. It was part of my coping mechanism. So, it didn't really hold me back from trying to live. That's because I've felt like I had to though. I've pretty much always told myself that I can't CTB while certain people are still alive.

But I suppose it's one of the reasons really trying at 'recovery' doesn't interest me. I don't particularly want to change how I think. I suppose because CTB is still my long-term aim.

Me CTBing would be an escape from hell. My career and life literally stolen, no one giving a shit, no opportunities, etc... my brain is fine. Nothing is chemically wrong. It's just I'm in a horrific life situation and there's no way out by all appearances besides that. So I'm not sure how this magical cure would work. As long as I am who I am and I am in this situation I'm going to feel this way.

 

[willitpass]

I am honestly quite attached to them. I can't imagine a life without them. I've always had suicide as an option in my back pocket in case something goes wrong even way back at age 10. I don't know any different. If getting rid of them could also get rid of my depression then maybe I would. It would allow me to enjoy the many great things I have in life and would spare my loved ones an incredible pain. But selfishly I also am attached to my depression. It is tied into my identity. We are one. So I'm not sure. I would have to think about it long and hard.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

No.

Unless the circumstances and reasons why I have them change at the same time and disappear.

 

[HarryCobean]

No, because I'm right to have suicidal thoughts.

 

[LunarLight]

Of course because I don't think life in itself is not worth living, I just think mine is very hard to live because of the way my brain works.

 

[ninfanatic]

no, because it wouldn't get rid of the otherwise unsolvable problems.

 

[SilentSadness]

No. Suicidal thoughts are not unpleasant for me, and they are not a problem. If none of my problems were solved, the only thing that would do is take away a potential solution. The idea that there's no escape from this suffering would be the epitome of despair.

 

[ctbusser]

You get this thoughts not out nowhere. That's why therapy doesn't work - it doesn't solve your real life problems that make you want quit

 

[AbusedInnocent]

So I'm still depressed but now with no way out? hell no.

 

[timetodie24]

No as i'd still be unhappy with life but just enduring it

 

[destinationlosangel]

No. My health issues are not gonna vanish by pressing that button. Infact, pressing that button would probably fuck me up because then I'd have no way out

 

[SoulWhisperer]

Suicidal thoughts are nothing but a reaction to my life. Without them I'd probably be stuck to suffer endlessly and be unable to do anything if I would fail to recover. Death is one of my options not a goal for me, if I were to have one less option this way I would risk suffering more.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Of course. It doesn't matter what the circumstances of your life are if you want to live.

This is of course assuming the existence of magic or something because that's what if would take to banish my suicidal thought.

Where my SS arcanists at?

 

[kiki <3]

voted no because i believe i would still be very unhappy. unhappy with being human, unhappy with sharing this space with humans who want to devour, destroy and suffocate others with their evil. this world was not meant for me. i've tried so hard to understand or perhaps adapt to everything that comes with being alive… and it all brought me back to passing away, no longer having to deal with the consequences of owning a body, a life. a way out as an option is needed.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

What for? Life is meaningless to me. I guess I can be thankful for these thoughts, at least I have some kind of drive and motivation to end all this sooner, rather than wait until it ends on its own, that is way too much time filled with nothingness.

 

[shironeko]

I'd rather be suicidal than ignoring me and other's pain. My life will not gonna be better, and I will become a kind of person that I hate most.

This is worse than suicide. It means killing myself and make someone I hate to live with my body.

 

[-Link-]

Voted no. I don't like the idea of no longer having "a way out," of being trapped. I'd rather have suicide always on the table as an option.

This this this all day long.

I am in Canada, and our government recently withdrew its plans for extending assisted dying services to the mentally ill. All this did was increase the stress I feel on a day-to-day basis. In the time they were making that progress, it alleviated some of my stress as it was a source of comfort to know the option would be there if I needed it. But now that's gone.

The ability and availability of "a way out" is an important part of my coping with the day-to-day.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

No, those thoughts are basically part of me at this point. There is something comforting about the fact that I can kill myself if shit ever hits the fan. There are times where they intense enough that it stresses me out, but a part of me oddly likes that about them.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I already have that button and I push it regularly. It's called dopamine. Too bad the effects aren't permanent.

 

[greenblood]

No, I feel like I'm losing my spark.

 

[landslide2]

No, I would feel like I'm trapping myself, forcing myself to suffer.