purplemoon

purplemoon

I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
Sep 22, 2019
394
Dark "HORSE"... to catch my bus... possibly...

i never ever do anything illegal, I am sooooo paranoid about that stuff.

But in theory, if it ever got unbearable, for example if I ever became homeless, then I might be willing to take a chance.

I've never ridden a "Dark horse", besides feeling like a goof using Google to look at pictures of it, if you were me...

who (type of person) would you approach & what would you look for as far as buying a Darkhorse to catch the bus?

I can't do anything physically rough like hanging, it's just too much for me. Since I am unlucky enough to be in America, where they put everybody in cages in prisons for the slightest thing, I'm too scared to even ask anyone in person. But if I ever became too desperate in absolute Dire Straits, I probably wouldn't care at that point. I just read that a lot of other countries are actually using it to help people that are in pain, but not here sadly.

Here in the United States, it's a madhouse with nice scenery and if you react to it, somehow you're the one with a "mental problem", oh no... it could never just be the disaster environment of violence, constant financial devastation, no job security, and chaos... anyway... such a peaceful place!


I'd rather quickly drown, do hypothermia, or best of all just fall asleep into a nice relaxing Coma

I prefer something more gentle and more mellow.

All of these questions are only In theory, of course! (*cough*)


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Lotus1818

Lotus1818

Experienced
Nov 4, 2019
248
I'm confused are you looking for a method? I think reading Stans SN guide could help you
 
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marcusuk63

marcusuk63

CTB
Mar 24, 2019
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To "Ride The White horse" is a common reference to being high on cocaine or heroin but i`ve never heard of ride the dark horse.
 
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Morphosis

Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
260
I'm confused are you looking for a method? I think reading Stans SN guide could help you
I think @purplemoon is possibly looking for advice on sourcing H
I could be wrong
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
846
Horse is slang for smack/heroin... but I've never heard anyone say dark horse
 
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Morphosis

Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
260
who (type of person) would you approach & what would you look for as far as buying a Darkhorse to catch the bus?
You would be taking a gamble with regards to purity just approaching someone on the street. Have you access to dark net markets at all? Am guessing not from your post?
If not, is it an option to find a needle exchange in your nearest city and try to have a chat with a regular user? Be prepared for them to be suspicious in case you're undercover police though! There were a few arrests in a city near me recently after a policewoman went undercover pretending to be an addict.
Also just be careful YOU don't approach the undercover narc lol
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
846
Solid advice in the post above mine. ^^ someone knows what's up. I would take the advice of the above poster.
 
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sleepy dog

sleepy dog

Wizard
Sep 13, 2019
624
Well, I am only going by what I saw on TV or a Youtube video. It might have been 'Vice' channel. The addicts in San Francisco are being allowed to "shoot up". They are even doing it on the sidewalks in front of businesses, and piss and shit also. The owners call the city officials and the cops. They say they have to be tolerant. They even give needles to the addicts. So if you can get to San Fran, you might find it easy. See an addict shoot up, that will not be a cop.
 
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Hunter100

Hunter100

Lost...
Oct 12, 2019
157
I take it you're looking for H? If that's the case then it really depends on where you live. Unless you buy from the darkweb. Methadone clinics in the inner city is your best bet. But you need to be very VERY careful since they will probably be extremely suspicious of you. This is very location based unless you know someone online. You need to be street smart so you don't get yourself in a world of shit which is very possible!
 
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purplemoon

purplemoon

I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
Sep 22, 2019
394
Thanks everyone...

H for Horse, Dark for both death & purity...

I really appreciate the thoughtful comments and input from you all.

As far as an undercover cops... over a lifetime I've dated plenty of police (well they are smart enough for me, heroic, cute, and umm...very talented) including a few detectives, one of my exes used to play a little game with me occasionally and invite one of his undercover vice or narc cops to a restaurant we were at to test me and every time i would pick them out of a crowd every time, Usually on my way back from the bathroom and I would stop by their table and ask them how they're doing. Their body language, demeanor, walk, confidence, even their shoe choice and look in their eyes gives them away I think... Even the ones with long shaggy hair trying to blend in and look like non-vice. I thought it was hilarious but he seemed pretty shocked, Lol. So was his wife and i when we discovered he was actually married having an affair... i guess he never thought he'd get caught?! And after we wrote poetry to each other etc what a disappointment!!

pardon me, i digress...

I wouldn't trust anyone online as they could be anyone posing.

Hopefully it will never come to that, because I don't feel safe around a lot of those people from the streets, as desperate people often do desperate things, plus the level of despair i sense from them terrifies me, yet i want to console them. my empathy sometimes clouds my instinct.

The idea of going to a place where they collect needles and finding a new friend who likes horses is probably the way I would consider if it ever became a desperate situation to where i would be homeless. I cannot survive any more trauma to my nervous system, i would collapse and be even more fragile physically etc.

Thank you all for your kindness.

Ohhh... and hi to the vice people, Lol

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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I'm confused are you looking for a method? I think reading Stans SN guide could help you
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
 
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purplemoon

purplemoon

I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
Sep 22, 2019
394
Hopefully God will rescue me from such a fate...






Please tell your community and government they need to do what Finland did...

End homelessness and the despair it creates by demanding more affordable housing for all human beings...
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
837
I came in here to tell you that you'd need to learn the junkie lingo and to steal your gifs.
 
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purplemoon

purplemoon

I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
Sep 22, 2019
394
I came in here to tell you that you'd need to learn the junkie lingo and to steal your gifs.

LOL

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it's Like I'm a naive librarian that peaked into the doorway of the mafia, probably funny to everyone!
 
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WhiteDespair

WhiteDespair

The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
837
LOL

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it's Like I'm a naive librarian that peaked into the doorway of the mafia, probably funny to everyone!
Yep. You can out yourself easily and that won't help your objectives. You'd be seen as an easy mark.

Either way, you're lucky not to have that knowledge. I learned what I know from a friend who was deep into it.
 
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