VoidDesirer22

VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
The show must go on.

I cannot continue to exist and continue self-destructive behaviours.

I am not for this world.

That is all.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,712
My position too.
 
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sharky

sharky

Lost
Dec 15, 2021
282
I'll use SN too if I don't get fentanyl. I'm kinda scared of SN to be honest. I definitely want to go as peaceful as possible.
 
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VoidDesirer22

VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
I'll use SN too if I don't get fentanyl. I'm kinda scared of SN to be honest. I definitely want to go as peaceful as possible.
The prospect of continuing my life for even one more month is becoming scarier than the headache, fast heart rate and longer time to black out that comes with SN.
And risk of vomiting.

I have good reason to believe my N has cleared customs as it has updated, but I cannot afford more so SN is on the table.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
37,160
I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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Of The Universe

Of The Universe

Specialist
Dec 31, 2021
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The prospect of continuing my life for even one more month is becoming scarier than the headache, fast heart rate and longer time to black out that comes with SN.
And risk of vomiting.

I have good reason to believe my N has cleared customs as it has updated, but I cannot afford more so SN is on the table.
I hope it gets to you soon.šŸ˜Š
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
738
I have good reason to believe my N has cleared customs as it has updated, but I cannot afford more so SN is on the table.
It will probably arrive just wait few more days. My N should arrive any day, also supposedly cleared by the customs.
The prospect of continuing my life for even one more month is becoming scarier than the headache, fast heart rate and longer time to black out that comes with SN.
And risk of vomiting.
Feel you, my backup method is partial hanging. At moments I just feel like grabbing a belt and having a go at it. Sorry about your situation or anyone's for that matter.
 
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VoidDesirer22

VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
It will probably arrive just wait few more days. My N should arrive any day, also supposedly cleared by the customs.

Feel you, my backup method is partial hanging. At moments I just feel like grabbing a belt and having a go at it. Sorry about your situation or anyone's for that matter.
Yeh I'm hoping for before the weekend. Or by latest, next week.

I will breathe the biggest sigh of relief ever known to mankind. I will be kissing the bottles.
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
738
Yeh I'm hoping for before the weekend. Or by latest, next week.

I will breathe the biggest sigh ever known to mankind. I will be kissing the bottles.
I still have to take care of some personal matters, so likely later in April. I will be feeling relieved when I get N as well. Likely trading one hell for another in the afterlife but we'll find that out. I know you have strong convictions and I don't wanna debate you or anything, hehe. Wish you well anyhow!
 
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Nightmare Painting

Student
Dec 16, 2021
121
I'm hoping that I can leave in April also; my N cleared customs and should be arriving this week. When I finally managed to buy my bitcoin I found myself smiling for the first time in about 5 months. I guess I'm subconsciously relieved that I'm one step closer to finally leaving this hellscape.
I will be feeling relieved when I get N as well. Likely trading one hell for another in the afterlife but we'll find that out.
The thought of that happening has crossed my mind before and it's somewhat disturbing to say the least.
 
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bad luck

bad luck

Memento mori
Mar 2, 2021
772
They didn't pay me enough and I don't feel like going to court because it would take years to get paid, so I've psyched myself up for SN. Also in April. Sure you get your N. Luck
 
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burningred

Member
Nov 9, 2021
18
Same. I'm not even sure I'm going to be able to buy N, but if I can't I'm going to go with SN. I can't fathom living for more than a month right now. Everyday is a bad day and I can't stand this anymore. Now it's a normal occurrence when I break down in tears because of a panic attack in the middle of the night. I'm so sick of this.
I hope you'll receive your N. I wish you luck!
 
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Pain In The Ass

Pain In The Ass

Wizard
Feb 10, 2022
638
I'll use SN too if I don't get fentanyl. I'm kinda scared of SN to be honest. I definitely want to go as peaceful as possible.
Did you try to get the pharmacy grade Fent from Bulgaria we spoke about, for your pain?
 

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