I'm researching partial hanging. Until then I use viramin C mega doses, b & magnesium... And this SS site to cope... But... Hard. Try to learn the art of not giving a fuck, or hate, or revenge fantaisies? I don't know hat happened to you. But sadness is a stage of grief... Anger is too but hurts less. Unless you turn it against you. But it can be constructive like leaving an abuser. People use booze, drugs, psych meds... But I wouldn't. I think it makes me more vulnerable to impair my thinking with poison... But I'd gladly OD if I could...
(Crap I revived an old thread of 2 years by accident? Oh god so many names with lines...)