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wham311
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- Mar 1, 2025
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I'm so fucking nervous. This is such a an adult situation I'm not cut out for.I genuinely don't know, however, I think the checks occur after a site is seized... unless they do keyword searches into packaging descriptions and have a system setup for issuing checks that way.
There are guides on the site for what is best to say (chemistry, etc), and the fact that by saying that everyone in the household is ok from behind the door, they probably don't have legal authority to force entry.I'm so fucking nervous. This is such a an adult situation I'm not cut out for.
I don't know what to do
I've already had a check for sn. I don't know what withe happen if I got another.There are guides on the site for what is best to say (chemistry, etc), and the fact that by saying that everyone in the household is ok from behind the door, they probably don't have legal authority to force entry.
ahhh. The thing is, even if I ordered a few days ago, there'd be tight timing for CTB before monday.. and the death wish will likely fade by then (but the SN doesn't care, it could stay for years). plus, then there is meto (recommended but not 100% required) to source, hours of planning in advance, and non detection. vs some other methods with already available resources and faster timelines (tho I have failed an attempt in 2022 with not much happening after, couldn't easily buy stuff back then so I used 1 sock... instead of 3)I've already had a check for sn. I don't know what withe happen if I got another.
My mom woukd also have me committed I think
Meto and other stuff is easily sourced.ahhh. The thing is, even if I ordered a few days ago, there'd be tight timing for CTB before monday.. and the death wish will likely fade by then (but the SN doesn't care, it could stay for years). plus, then there is meto (recommended but not 100% required) to source, hours of planning in advance, and non detection. vs some other methods with already available resources and faster timelines (tho I have failed an attempt in 2022 with not much happening after, couldn't easily buy stuff back then so I used 1 sock... instead of 3)
I've had multiple checks on when they found out I had ordered sn. Luckily had to prepare as I wasn't home when most of them happened. It give me enough time to make excuses and most time I was extremely well presentably and as I looked fine police took me at face value and just give helpline number to call. With mental health services I just shut the door in their faces because they let me down so much. This one time I even had my full sn kit on me and 136 but the police and mental health staff were really bad at their job and didn't search my job well enoughI've already had a check for sn. I don't know what withe happen if I got another.
My mom woukd also have me committed I think
It seems like the only solution is to order and do it immediately because there's a lag between drlivery and check.
God this is so much pressure
absolute worst case scenario (UNREALISTIC) is being arrested on suspicion of murder and some false imprisonment (yes, sn has been used in murder before, put into cereal to harm or kill a wife, ended up killing 1 child and hospitalising another instead).Sorry so what's the worst that could happen if I order this
absolute worst case scenario (UNREALISTIC) is being arrested on suspicion of murder and some false imprisonment (yes, sn has been used in murder before, put into cereal to harm or kill a wife, ended up killing 1 child and hospitalising another instead).
Realistic worst case scenario? wellness check and maybe time in the ward, but nothing too severe.
realistically, the chances of ward aren't too high if it is explained away, tho idk the exact chances, and haven't bought that magic salt (I want to buy it with Ammonium Sulfate for a chemistry experiment, see for myself if a YT chemistry video was accurate)Id rather die than spend time in the ward.
Irony
Hard to explain away the second time ordering sn and admitting the first time it was due to suicidalityrealistically, the chances of ward aren't too high if it is explained away, tho idk the exact chances, and haven't bought that magic salt (I want to buy it with Ammonium Sulfate for a chemistry experiment, see for myself if a YT chemistry video was accurate)
oh yes, true. I haven't ordered before, tho if I order I'll have to not give into the temptation of consuming it... so I can actually do the science experiment and maybe share my results here. Will need a separate liquid thermometer, some ppe maybe, and spare water in case the compounds get on me by accidentHard to explain away the second time ordering sn and admitting the first time it was due to suicidality