College is not good for my mental health. Really not. Not sure how long it will take until I am acute suicidal again.
I don't attend many courses. I will never finish my degree anyway. But my dad wanted me to continue.
I worked for a paper with AI to get ideas. But most of my formulations were my own thoughts. And most of the evaluation in the paper also were my original thoughts. But some sentences were very much inspired by AI.
I am scared as shit to be called out by the lecturer maybe in front of my peers. I panic so Hard. However, I think He is a really friendly guy. I am not sure. I have the feeling my fear might be irrational. But this anxiety exhausts me so fucking much. I have so much fear I wish He would come to my house and kill me instead. I wish He sends me a mark as soon as possible. But I will probably have to wait. I think this will ruin my weekend.
The thing is I am such a rational person and this anxiety is irrational. I am in panic all the time but most of the time this is all in my head and I overthink things way too hard. I just have to relax. I wish I was a little bit cooler. But my sleep deteriorates again and I need all these addictive sleeping Pulls.
I don't attend many courses. I will never finish my degree anyway. But my dad wanted me to continue.
I worked for a paper with AI to get ideas. But most of my formulations were my own thoughts. And most of the evaluation in the paper also were my original thoughts. But some sentences were very much inspired by AI.
I am scared as shit to be called out by the lecturer maybe in front of my peers. I panic so Hard. However, I think He is a really friendly guy. I am not sure. I have the feeling my fear might be irrational. But this anxiety exhausts me so fucking much. I have so much fear I wish He would come to my house and kill me instead. I wish He sends me a mark as soon as possible. But I will probably have to wait. I think this will ruin my weekend.
The thing is I am such a rational person and this anxiety is irrational. I am in panic all the time but most of the time this is all in my head and I overthink things way too hard. I just have to relax. I wish I was a little bit cooler. But my sleep deteriorates again and I need all these addictive sleeping Pulls.
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