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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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I turned 27 last month I feel like an enormous failure of a woman because I am still a virgin and failed to get a man of my own. All my life men have rejected even my own father didn't want me he left my mum while she was pregnant with me to start life with a new family, we were not good enough for him another family was and this new family he had lived a 30 minute bus ride away in a neighbourhood where I regularly went to cinema as child, learning this a teenager was the worst thing ever. My dad only cared about my existence when tried to save himself from deportation out of all his kids I had a British passport. As a teenager boys at school regularly builled me for being the werid girl while all the other girls at school got picked. I had the confidence to talk to the guys I liked at school but still they rejected and humiliated me. In adulthood I am still unsuccessful with men. I ask guys out they dump me at the last minute I even get told by other people that a woman should NOT ask a man out and that it is only the role of a man to chase a woman. The guys I have loved throughout my life I have broken my heart in so many ways. I can't cope anymore. I take an interest in the men I like, genuinely care for them but nobody ever feels the same about me. I think I am cursed because all my life I have been rejected by men and treated awfully by men I loved. Its been a vicious cycle for there is no relief of this suffering
I am sick of being that girl now woman who never gets picked. One day before my 27th birthday I went climbing up the 02 Arena. t's a dome where concerts get held and the dome is 50 metres high.. I went by myself for my climb before my climb went visiting the 02 arena shops and restaurants it absolutely hurt seeing other women with their men, they looked so special and all I see love I never got to have.
I have been doing my fun things by myself because I never had a man of my own and have no friends. Seeing other women I know in my life all getting married is just a reminder of how all my life I have always been that girl now woman who never gets picked while other women get picked. I see women with their husbands and their lives are so perfect I wish I was loved in that way. I wish for once I was picked and someone's girlfriend or wife. I wish I was that special woman who gers valentines gifts from her boyfriend, who gets loved by her man.
All my life I have been single and I am NOT going through another decade single in an age where its impossible to be meet men. I watched all the YouTube and tiktok videos where male youtubers say 30 is the age a woman is " expired " and too old. When I turn 30 it all be over, my life will be over at 30.
I finally understand why this woman killed herself at 31 due to being single and seeing her friends getting married.
I am sick of being that girl now woman who never gets picked. One day before my 27th birthday I went climbing up the 02 Arena. t's a dome where concerts get held and the dome is 50 metres high.. I went by myself for my climb before my climb went visiting the 02 arena shops and restaurants it absolutely hurt seeing other women with their men, they looked so special and all I see love I never got to have.
I have been doing my fun things by myself because I never had a man of my own and have no friends. Seeing other women I know in my life all getting married is just a reminder of how all my life I have always been that girl now woman who never gets picked while other women get picked. I see women with their husbands and their lives are so perfect I wish I was loved in that way. I wish for once I was picked and someone's girlfriend or wife. I wish I was that special woman who gers valentines gifts from her boyfriend, who gets loved by her man.
All my life I have been single and I am NOT going through another decade single in an age where its impossible to be meet men. I watched all the YouTube and tiktok videos where male youtubers say 30 is the age a woman is " expired " and too old. When I turn 30 it all be over, my life will be over at 30.
I finally understand why this woman killed herself at 31 due to being single and seeing her friends getting married.
Woman hanged herself after struggling to cope with friends marrying
Business development manager Danielle Saul (pictured) lived alone in Manchester while those closest to her settled down to married life - something she longed for with her former boyfriend.
www.dailymail.co.uk
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