If All Else Fails...

[Joey]

If all else fails and if life doesn't work out the way that I want it too, I'll forever live my life the way that I want to do.

1. Live in my car / go on adventures
2. Not follow the Life-Script as in going into college to get that amazing degree, amazing house, and have kids.
3. Journey into the unknown
4. Go from job to job

You only live life once anyway, so why the fuck not live it the way I want too.

 

[timf]

A scripted life may buffer people from some of life's hazards, but it also can constrain from some of life's joys.

If you break free (like in the Matrix), you assume greater responsibility for your own life which includes consequences. Some have found alcohol and drugs to be an entanglement. Others may find gambling or debt to consume them.

There are potential hazards and pitfalls in life. They say the best education comes from the school of hard knocks, it is just that the "tuition" is so high.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I kind of did that. It was fun. But I was very, very drunk. Now I am paying the price even though it's a price I'm not willing to pay, I have no choice.

 

[Sinkinshyp]

If all else fails and if life doesn't work out the way that I want it too, I'll forever live my life the way that I want to do.

1. Live in my car / go on adventures
2. Not follow the Life-Script as in going into college to get that amazing degree, amazing house, and have kids.
3. Journey into the unknown
4. Go from job to job

You only live life once anyway, so why the fuck not live it the way I want too.

I had to reply to you because of your name first. My older sons name was Joey. Your first "1. Live in my car / go on adventures" He LOVED his cars. He died 3 yrs ago in a car accident, my reason to CTB. I believe in my afterlife I will be reunited with my amazing son. He sends me signs I've got photo proof- his name in the clouds with a face above the J and hearts with mom in the clouds. I think your post was a sign to me from my son. Thank you.

I'm 48. I've been through to much hell in my lifetime. I can relate on many levels to so many in this group. As a child I wanted to be a veterinarian. I'm 48 and yes I still say I want to be a veterinarian. I was born into hell. Than my dad died when I was 15, my boyfriend I met was more evil than my dad used me for a punching bag for the next ohh yr and a almost a half. I tried to CTB as a teenager and failed at it. Cancer at 18. Than my older son was born when I was 20. SO I quit school at 16. When my son came into my life it was the first love and light. I did get my ged when he was about 5 to show him how important an education is. I did start college and got sick so I never got to be a veterinarian. I got so much more though- my son for 25 years 4 months and 2 days of pure love and happiness. I ended up having my own cleaning service. I have taken care of wildlife- raised and released so many that needed me. Formed a dog club rescued lots of dogs. I guess I'm sharing because even though things don't go how we WANT them to sometimes it goes in a totally different direction and its MUCH better, more rewarding. I'm here to be a support for folks and I plan to CTB. Before I CTB I want to put out some advice from a mom and someone who has been around for 48 years and have been through so much hell. Hopefully my life experiences can help someone else....

 

[overcomingfear]

I had to reply to you because of your name first. My older sons name was Joey. Your first "1. Live in my car / go on adventures" He LOVED his cars. He died 3 yrs ago in a car accident, my reason to CTB. I believe in my afterlife I will be reunited with my amazing son. He sends me signs I've got photo proof- his name in the clouds with a face above the J and hearts with mom in the clouds. I think your post was a sign to me from my son. Thank you.

I'm 48. I've been through to much hell in my lifetime. I can relate on many levels to so many in this group. As a child I wanted to be a veterinarian. I'm 48 and yes I still say I want to be a veterinarian. I was born into hell. Than my dad died when I was 15, my boyfriend I met was more evil than my dad used me for a punching bag for the next ohh yr and a almost a half. I tried to CTB as a teenager and failed at it. Cancer at 18. Than my older son was born when I was 20. SO I quit school at 16. When my son came into my life it was the first love and light. I did get my ged when he was about 5 to show him how important an education is. I did start college and got sick so I never got to be a veterinarian. I got so much more though- my son for 25 years 4 months and 2 days of pure love and happiness. I ended up having my own cleaning service. I have taken care of wildlife- raised and released so many that needed me. Formed a dog club rescued lots of dogs. I guess I'm sharing because even though things don't go how we WANT them to sometimes it goes in a totally different direction and its MUCH better, more rewarding. I'm here to be a support for folks and I plan to CTB. Before I CTB I want to put out some advice from a mom and someone who has been around for 48 years and have been through so much hell. Hopefully my life experiences can help someone else....

Sad to see people missing their loved ones. How do you think your son would react to ur death? Maybe he'd want you to go on? Life just doesn't look so bad for you now, but what do i know

 

[Sinkinshyp]

Sad to see people missing their loved ones. How do you think your son would react to ur death? Maybe he'd want you to go on? Life just doesn't look so bad for you now, but what do i know

being here with out my son is existing. I spend 24/7 in my bedroom, 2 sets of curtains on my windows in the dark. I leave my room to use bathroom, get food and feed my animals. They're already have family who live with me when I CTB that want them. All I knew was being MOM. It's so painfully devastating without him. I cry in full gut wrenching hysterics for him every day. Would he want me to do this? I can tell you NO he would not want me to. I just believe in my afterlife we will be together again.

 

[overcomingfear]

being here with out my son is existing. I spend 24/7 in my bedroom, 2 sets of curtains on my windows in the dark. I leave my room to use bathroom, get food and feed my animals. They're already have family who live with me when I CTB that want them. All I knew was being MOM. It's so painfully devastating without him. I cry in full gut wrenching hysterics for him every day. Would he want me to do this? I can tell you NO he would not want me to. I just believe in my afterlife we will be together again.

I'm sorry it is like that for you. Like a dead end. He'd not want a good mother to suffer. I just don't believe in afterlife, once a person is gone he is gone.
Interesting how my own mom would react if i ctb, probably just like you

 

[Sinkinshyp]

I'm sorry it is like that for you. Like a dead end. He'd not want a good mother to suffer. I just don't believe in afterlife, once a person is gone he is gone.
Interesting how my own mom would react if i ctb, probably just like you

I have proof my son sent signs in the afterlife. He wrote JOE in the clouds with a face above the J. Another was a heart MOM. I've seen more signs that I just cant explain otherwise. I've also had at least 20 medium readings with 12 nailing it.

 

[overcomingfear]

I have proof my son sent signs in the afterlife. He wrote JOE in the clouds with a face above the J. Another was a heart MOM. I've seen more signs that I just cant explain otherwise. I've also had at least 20 medium readings with 12 nailing it.

I'm sorry i don't believe in spiritual things, i think you're in sorrow still grieving for your son that you interpret skies like this

 

[Sinkinshyp]

I'm sorry i don't believe in spiritual things, i think you're in sorrow still grieving for your son that you interpret skies like this

Everyone can have their own beliefs. Yes, I am in deep grief and sorrow. I'm known as Dez in certain places. Not trying to change your beliefs just showing some things I've seen as signs.

pic 1- JOE in sky with face above J 2 the face above J pic 3 DEZJO license plate 4 the car with DEZJO license plate.

 

[overcomingfear]

Everyone can have their own beliefs. Yes, I am in deep grief and sorrow. I'm known as Dez in certain places. Not trying to change your beliefs just showing some things I've seen as signs.

pic 1- JOE in sky with face above J 2 the face above J pic 3 DEZJO license plate 4 the car with DEZJO license plate.

I see the face on the closeup but the j is just a cloud to me. These things are unclear and can be perceived as many things. Don't mean to be rude but grieving people can look for signs anywhere. It's a coincidence with ur name and the car plate. Anyway i hope you find relief one way or another