Maybe not, but still kind of a petty reason to end a friendship. It's definitely not good.
Bad but not "you should be sent to Hell" kind of bad. You're a man, of course your screaming is going to be scary to a couple of women.
Even if it makes sense that doesn't make it any more or less bad IMO. I've done it more than once too and recently if that helps make it seem worse.
Funerals aren't for comforting the dead. This seems like nothing.
It's still pretty rude the way I see it. They were a huge part of my life in my early childhood and I opted to ignore paying any respects out of cowardice and laziness.
If you didn't do this I'd view you as being a moron.
I'm still a moron because I didn't retain any of the info I was supposed to learn.
So? Is being rude some kind of crime these days?
Well it's generally considered bad to be rude to people who are only trying to help or be nice and that's exactly what I did...
My concern isn't that you voted for Trump. My concern is that you did so twice while thinking that makes you awful. Really weird.
Well even if I myself didn't think that was awful, it's still objectively awful to most people I know and to most people in the world so what I think doesn't matter.
This is such a silly thing to hold against yourself.
Why? It's a pretty dickish thing to do and yet knowing that doesn't make me stop doing it.
So, you think that rejecting others is awful? Makes me wonder how you feel about other people rejecting you? Odd mindset.
I've always felt awful whenever I'm rejected even when I didn't want to be accepted in the first place for whatever reason. When I'm the one who has to reject someone I tend to feel even worse about it but that still doesn't make me not do it even for my own petty selfish reasons. The people who've rejected me in various ways (not just romantically) all had way more justification than I ever could so I don't always hold that against them but that doesn't make the rejection itself hurt any less...
lol wtf
Racism is supposed to be bad in all circumstances. Is this really what we're teaching the current generation? "It's okay to be racist, just not against black people?" You wouldn't happen to be a Millennial?
Yep, I'm a millennial and not just any kind of millennial, I'm a millennial in the Silicon Valley so according to them and Hollywood racism is more okay against some races than others. Obviously I think it's still just as bad no matter what the targeted race is but most people here won't admit that themselves. Me bringing that fact up about how they're not black is just more of me covering my own ass so people don't come after me for it even though it's true.
The fact that you buried this statement along with "being slightly rude that one time" says a lot and proves my point. You're overplaying minor flaws and heavy downplaying your huge flaws. This is repugnant behavior.
You're absolutely right on this one! That's all I have to say to that because I just want to make it more clear to everyone. Very clever of you to see through my deception.
That's how you finish off this list? "I want ethnic genocide due to my creepy, entitled attitude towards women but UHHH I'm awful because I misplaced something"? You're sick.
Same as above.
Stop indirectly blaming your issues on women.
Well I don't deny these events were my own fault. I wasn't trying to directly or indirectly blame these issues on her or any women though if that's how it's interpreted I guess that's the truth of it then. Wouldn't be the first time. Add that to more reasons I'm an incel I guess, which I'm always willing to admit.
Self-reflection, my ass. You'd be fixing yourself if you realized how disgusting your mindset is. Not letting yourself rot in it and expecting pity out of others.
Not necessarily, I know all this about myself BECAUSE of self reflection showing me the truth and getting me to conclude that my mindset is trash just like the rest of me and the fact that I know and do nothing about is a key reason I'm never going to change. If anything, any attempts to go against my true horrible nature would be spitting in the face of my self reflection by denying who I am. Also I don't do or say any of this for pity, I hate it when people pity me because they're clearly wasting their emotional investments.
Nice, more vague details. Care to be specific, so that you can reflect on things properly?
I don't see what's so vague about that. I guess it's pretty broad but I simply get enjoyment from almost anytime when people who don't deserve to suffer have something bad happen to them, like when my friend's dad caught covid I laughed even though he never did anything wrong as far as I know. On a smaller scale, when I play games I play in ways to make my opponents and my teammates hate the fact that I'm playing though that's why I don't get to play many team games. Whenever I hear about tragedies in the news like mass shootings, hurricanes, or violent protests I also usually just laugh. I don't think it's in an involuntary way like in the Joker movie either. I just genuinely found those kinds of events funny. And yes I am aware I am being horrible again by juxtaposing stuff like creating gamer rage with the enjoyment of real human suffering but again, that's kind of the point. I just don't care.
How about you fix your shit instead of crying to SS about this? Why do you think that working on yourself is like moving a damn boulder? You're willingly being a piece of shit. No amount of tragic backstories or mental illness is going to make up for that. You COULD be a good person, but are making a million and one excuses not to be one. Which just turns into an endless cycle of you saying you're horrible, therefore you become horrible. Nobody is forcing you to be a pedo-sympathizing, Nazi incel. You chose this path and are still choosing it.
You're correct that I'm choosing this path but the fact that I'm choosing it is exactly why it's too late for me because now that I've sunk this low I'm not going to bother trying to climb back up unless certain nigh-impossible things happen for me. I'm aware that I'm just stubborn like that so why fight it? I guess I'd just rather cry about it on SS because it's easier than actually fixing myself and I'll always ALWAYS choose the easier path in most situations, or at least whichever the path of least resistance is.
Technically I'm not a Nazi though, at least not by the most common definition. I don't hate Jewish people at all. I've got friends who are Jewish whereas with the race I hate I would rather die than even associate with them. Semantics I know, just thought it was worth pointing out that Jewish people are not the race I target either in case anyone was trying to guess.
It's almost as if you need to work towards dispelling that hatred, hmm...
No duh, but why would I bother doing that? Have I not made it clear that doing that is so beyond my physical abilities to generate the motivation to even make an effort that it will never happen? I'm truly sorry if I haven't because that's just too hard. Plus the hatred is some of the only comfort I have because there's certainly no love to be found for me. I don't care that the love won't come until I give up the hatred. I'm not falling for that trick. Love has to come first before I give up the hatred otherwise I could easily be left with nothing.
Right. You tried to reject reality instead of self-improvement. Further proof you're looking for pity and nothing else.
How is that rejecting reality? If anything, this is just me embracing the reality that I'm awful and can't change because I won't change. As I said before, I'm definitely not intentionally looking for pity. I can't deny it feels good to be heard, but I'd truly rather have people ignore what I say than pity me for it.
This is pretty creepy considering that you're a self-described racist who wants an ethnic cleansing. What's so special about you and your DNA, exactly?
Absolutely nothing is special about my genes. It's just more proof of how disgusting I am. I'm glad you see it for what it is.
There's nothing noble about committing suicide. It's just a way to escape life. What would be noble is you owning up to your bullshit and trying to improve yourself and everything around you but I guess that's too much work when you can just get ass pats from SS.
It's only noble because it's removing myself from the world before I can continue to do more harm to everyone around me and even the world. I admit it's not actually that noble, but it's still the most noble thing I can actually realistically do. Me owning up to my bullshit and trying to improve things is like asking for me to become an all-powerful wizard who can grant all the wishes of all the good boys and girls. Both scenarios are more noble than CTB'ing but they're also both equally unrealistic. As for the asspats of SS, once again I'd like to affirm that I truly don't give a damn. I won't turn them away but I could care less whether I actually receive them.
Part of "absolution" is facing consequences. Even Catholics expect you to feel guilt and an immediate change in behavior post-confession. "Confessing" to a priest with full intention of committing the sin again is considered a mortal sin. I'm assuming you don't know what that is when your views of Christianity seem to come straight from Hollywood and LeVeyan Satanism.
My views of Christianity come from my mom actually being Christian and me going to Sunday school for a bit when I was younger. She wasn't Catholic so I dunno about confessions, all I mean is that I just wouldn't be able to accept Jesus forgiving my sins by praying to him regardless of whether or not I'd do them again which varies depending on the sin. It just doesn't work on me is all I'm saying. Besides I'm also aware that going out to do Churchly deeds like missionary work or whatever with the sole purpose of washing sins away is also a bad thing so I don't even bother. I know that good deeds don't matter when they're only done out of convenience or selfish reasons.
Any other consequences I refuse to accept are part of me being a piece of shit and yeah you're right that I can't have absolution without even trying but that's still all I want. Some people want unicorns to be real and that's about how realistic my wants are.
This has less to do with sexism and more to do with you relegating your shit onto someone else. If you are a rapist sympathizer, like you claim, then maybe you should stay away from women indefinitely. You'll end up hurting one.
I completely agree. It's why I don't try as hard as I should to go after people because part of me doesn't want to have to make any woman suffer just by knowing me. I believe that just meeting me is grounds for any woman to have all they need to legally accuse me of sexual harassment. I was once told that I only think this because my mind has been poisoned by wokeness but even if that's true, it doesn't matter because that's just the direction the world is headed right now which to some people is a good thing so it's not likely going away anytime soon. Good for them but all that is all the more reason why I deserve to die without getting better. People today don't want to see evil people redeemed, just removed from society. Usually by dying.
You're really good at downplaying your own words and relegating personal responsibility onto others. No wonder?
I don't really know exactly what you mean by this or how you got it from what you quoted from me before saying this. I wasn't really trying to do any of that but that doesn't mean I didn't do them so sure, why not? More awful acts to add to the pile.
here to give you that validation qween ;3
In all seriousness, I don't despise you. I'm trying to wake you up via harshness. You only live once. Stop squandering away your life and potential.
Well thanks for validating me and not just denying my awfulness like so many people I talk to irl do. I see what you're trying to do and even if it was harsh I'm grateful for the novel approach though I'm sorry your efforts are likely still wasted... Squandering my life is practically my top skill and I don't have any potential unfortunately. I'm really sorry I made it look like I have some.