Idk what to do anymore

[summa_tyme2224]

I have really really really severe chronic fatigue syndrome.

Ulcerative colitis.

Those alone make me not want to be here.

I can barely type this.

I'm mostly bedbound.

Struggle to speak drive walk stand sit.

Also have anxiety ptsd dpdr Did.

I'm ducking exhausted.

Nothing helps.

My life has been going in a vicious cycle for 7 years .

I'm 28.

I am financially dependent on my narcissistic family members.

They use the money to control me.

I hate it,

I hate them .

I'm living off $300/ mo.

I'm in therapy. Doesn't help.

Tried everything .didn't help.

I HATE where I'm living.

I've moved 67 times…in the last 7 years.

Idk how it's possible.

I'm so tired you guys.

I'm bored from laying in bed all day.

I want to move out of my house w roommates into my own place and I can't even afford that.

Financially or otherwise.

I'm absolutely miserable.

I've lost everything and everyone I ever cared about.

I tried to CTB in 2021.

Woke up fine unfortunately.

The fucked up part is I don't even rly want to die I just can't live like this.

My health, my finances, my home.

I'm constantly uncomfortable.

If I do CTB I will buy n in Peru.

To save up the money and energy for that will take probably a year at least.

Was gonna try ketamine but even did that twice and was hard physically.

I feel so ducking trapped in my body and my life.

I'm at a loss.

I'm gonna go lay down .

 

[Glenferd666]

Existing is terrible

 

[FuneralCry]

It really sounds like you've suffered a lot and I understand why you feel so tired, it's just so cruel to me how people suffer so much in this existence all through no fault of their own. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[thislife24]

I am the same age, and I have Lupus and chronic fatigue. Being in pain and fatigue all the time is absolutely terrible. I lost my job and I'm not really sure of what I'm going to do. I'm sorry you're going through this.

 

[uniqueusername4]

I'm so sorry. I don't know why people feel the need to trap us in this existence.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

If you are that bad, how can you possibly travel? Maybe you're stronger than you realize