Help Idk if this belongs here but would it be a bad idea to make a confession online that is guaranteed to be controversial?

[TrifoliumsFriend]

So ngl, I feel like my case of suicidality was very weird. I'm on a mentally sane place now, but let's just say that for the past three years, I've flirted with some…radical ideas, probably even too radical for this forum. Since I (probably) have OCD, those kind of overthinking tendencies have brought me into a rabbit hole that seemed impossible to climb out of as every counter argument was just dismissed even though it made logical sense. Not to say it's an excuse, I'm just saying it was a shitstorm of factors that led me to the lowest point in my life so far, and I found that dealing with it as if it's OCD has drastically improved my mental health.

Anyways, the only people who know this side of me is one friend I (regrettably) trauma dumped on as she was basically my only close-ish friend at the time, and medical workers. Obviously I'm not gonna talk to my friend about this, and unfortunately, mental health help costs money, and I just really wanted to see external output on this part of me. Not even sympathy or support necessary, but I just want people to react to me, yknow. I've thought about posting it here or on Reddit, but I don't want my ass doxxed or reported. And I know it sounds crazy, but I feel like it's the kind of confession that would get some weird Reddit detective to find me.

Just to be clear, I don't even think I need to be reported. I am stable now and the healthcare workers I've told surprisingly decided to let me cook instead of shutting me down. They didn't support my beliefs, of course, but they didn't lock me up either. I actually wanted to be sent to a hospital out of desperation (yknow, to take a break from my normal life) but they seemed oddly understanding, gave me input, and let me contemplate things myself.

I probably went all over the place here, but it's 5 am and I just need to get it out there so yea.

 

[ma0]

I mean as long as you include a little disclaimer that you're more mentally sane now and that all those ideas were from a previous time then there's no reason why you'd have a 20 minute video essay about it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Probably depends really. Would describing these ideas sound like you were inciting violence? Obviously, don't do that! You could probably word them so that they don't. As in- I used to believe ______ .

I think you probably need to consider in part whether you are going to really annoy certain groups of people. That's not to say you musn't do it but, you should prepare yourself for the backlash if you start presenting (controversial/ hateful) opinions as facts.

Just the other day, we had a self proclaimed incel join and ask if it was ok for them to talk. Just about everyone said yes- so long as you don't become too misogynistic, respect other members and, well... you can see...

are incels allowed here?

I don't care about expressing hate or causing any harm to anyone. I just want to find like-minded individuals, that's all.

sanctioned-suicide.net

So- it kind of depends on a few things really. Just how bad these ideas are. Certain subjects will naturally provoke a lot of backlash- like peadophilia or racist/trans/gender based hate.

Still, if you can present your ideas calmly and more importantly, remain calm if you do get difficult responses, I'd say here was a good place to air your thoughts.

You could maybe choose the more private board for a bit more privacy. People will at least need membership here to access that.

As for things like doxing though. I have no clue as to how safe you'd be I'm afraid. Maybe if you just gave everyone a broad subject description, people would be able to judge just how extreme it is and advise further.

 

[yowai]

Lol now I'm intrigued and wanna know more.

 

[TrifoliumsFriend]

Probably depends really. Would describing these ideas sound like you were inciting violence? Obviously, don't do that! You could probably word them so that they don't. As in- I used to believe ______ .

I think you probably need to consider in part whether you are going to really annoy certain groups of people. That's not to say you musn't do it but, you should prepare yourself for the backlash if you start presenting (controversial/ hateful) opinions as facts.

Just the other day, we had a self proclaimed incel join and ask if it was ok for them to talk. Just about everyone said yes- so long as you don't become too misogynistic, respect other members and, well... you can see...

are incels allowed here?

I don't care about expressing hate or causing any harm to anyone. I just want to find like-minded individuals, that's all.

sanctioned-suicide.net

So- it kind of depends on a few things really. Just how bad these ideas are. Certain subjects will naturally provoke a lot of backlash- like peadophilia or racist/trans/gender based hate.

Still, if you can present your ideas calmly and more importantly, remain calm if you do get difficult responses, I'd say here was a good place to air your thoughts.

You could maybe choose the more private board for a bit more privacy. People will at least need membership here to access that.

As for things like doxing though. I have no clue as to how safe you'd be I'm afraid. Maybe if you just gave everyone a broad subject description, people would be able to judge just how extreme it is and advise further

Ok, so it's not hate crime or identity related, so no sexist/racist/queerphobic shit. Still, let's just say if I followed through, I would probably end up like a dead incel on the news. I will say, looking back, while the conclusions were somewhat based on logic I still find sensible, they were also born out of my selfishness and my lack of emotional empathy. That factor is probably why I got so extreme.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Ok, so it's not hate crime or identity related, so no sexist/racist/queerphobic shit. Still, let's just say if I followed through, I would probably end up like a dead incel on the news. I will say, looking back, while the conclusions were somewhat based on logic I still find sensible, they were also born out of my selfishness and my lack of emotional empathy. That factor is probably why I got so extreme.

Because people would jump to the conclusion that you were an incel or, because your actions would have negatively targetted women? In which case- maybe they might be sexist? Not sure really. But, I'm not personally interested in arguing a battle of the sexes again. Maybe you would be more reasonable than others I've come across here seeing as you feel you've gained emotional empathy. Others might be willing to listen calmly and discuss though. Up to you really. Most people will give people a chance here I think. I'll ask you this though- if you don't mind? Do you prefer your state of mind now? I'm assuming it's less angry. Is that nicer?

 

[F@#$]

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