-tldr: There is a reason I am doing this. An organization/line of work made me this way. With my last action I would like to spread the truth about it. Any ideas how to do such a thing?
Hello all,
many years a lurker, happy to have finally committed to a course of action. I believe I will be following through around 2024 March. English is not my first language, so forgive me.
I see sometimes threads about ending things for political reasons, but I do not see this often. What I am doing is political-adjacent. I do not want to share too many details yet, but there is an industry... a cause that I devoted 25 years of my life to. A line of work and a lifestyle. And its a lie. a terrible lie that preys upon young dreamers. It swallows dreams whole. And it took my life. I haven't been alive for many years. And what's worse is I've helped it. I've fed it. Even today, I taught a lesson to one of my students. She will be going to college in this industry. I told her it will rape her and leave her empty, and yet like me she continues.
Anyways, again, I have not been here for a long time. Just a husk. Finally making a plan and setting a date has felt like such relief for me. But I want to use what little I have left to make a stand. To tell the truth. To lift the mask off and show what this work does to people.
So I have a ~~manifesto~~. It isnt long, less than 12000 words or so. But how do I get people to read it? What can I do to get people's attention? I picked March because that is when there will be a convention for this job in my home city in my home country. I would like to do it at the convention I think, but that will take a lot of planning. I don't wish to harm others, but I do want to spread fear. I want people to see what happens after 25 years of lies. I want to show them what happens to a human. Or at least someone who used to be human.
So what ideas do any of you have? I know that most people on here find this decision to be very personal and intimate. The less hassle the better. I used to think that, but then I realized the correct thing to do... if my life was worth anything, it can be used to stop people from making the same mistake I have. To stop young dreamers from listening to people like me. People who profit off of young people's hopes and dreams. I retch thinking about what I am.
Any ideas? How best to spread my message without causing harm? Thank you.
with friendly regards,
TTW - Leipzig, DE
Hello all,
many years a lurker, happy to have finally committed to a course of action. I believe I will be following through around 2024 March. English is not my first language, so forgive me.
I see sometimes threads about ending things for political reasons, but I do not see this often. What I am doing is political-adjacent. I do not want to share too many details yet, but there is an industry... a cause that I devoted 25 years of my life to. A line of work and a lifestyle. And its a lie. a terrible lie that preys upon young dreamers. It swallows dreams whole. And it took my life. I haven't been alive for many years. And what's worse is I've helped it. I've fed it. Even today, I taught a lesson to one of my students. She will be going to college in this industry. I told her it will rape her and leave her empty, and yet like me she continues.
Anyways, again, I have not been here for a long time. Just a husk. Finally making a plan and setting a date has felt like such relief for me. But I want to use what little I have left to make a stand. To tell the truth. To lift the mask off and show what this work does to people.
So I have a ~~manifesto~~. It isnt long, less than 12000 words or so. But how do I get people to read it? What can I do to get people's attention? I picked March because that is when there will be a convention for this job in my home city in my home country. I would like to do it at the convention I think, but that will take a lot of planning. I don't wish to harm others, but I do want to spread fear. I want people to see what happens after 25 years of lies. I want to show them what happens to a human. Or at least someone who used to be human.
So what ideas do any of you have? I know that most people on here find this decision to be very personal and intimate. The less hassle the better. I used to think that, but then I realized the correct thing to do... if my life was worth anything, it can be used to stop people from making the same mistake I have. To stop young dreamers from listening to people like me. People who profit off of young people's hopes and dreams. I retch thinking about what I am.
Any ideas? How best to spread my message without causing harm? Thank you.
with friendly regards,
TTW - Leipzig, DE
