samishii
What's the point?
- Dec 24, 2021
- 103
Woke up, started living this shit day, posted this, then I thought I'd start working on sth important and try to improve my mood, which aparrently did help me this time.
started talking to my housemates and drank two sips of wine, went out for a smoke since 3 of 7 people smoke, everyone joined us, and then because two of the people started talking about French language.
My dumb self thought it would be funny to talk about the Andrew Tate song, which I knew was french, and then offended one person, and they were like why did I bring this topic up. I was too overwhelmed to answer anything by then.
I do realize this, now that I think of it, there is nothing even remotely funny about it.
I hate the fact that as soon as I try to make someone laugh or chuckle, I just dig a grave for myself by doing so, I open my mouth and all that comes out is crap, fucking offending people every other day.
It's like even if I stay alive, and everything goes the way want it to, become successful, I don't think I'll be able to survive with this brain of mine in the society.
started talking to my housemates and drank two sips of wine, went out for a smoke since 3 of 7 people smoke, everyone joined us, and then because two of the people started talking about French language.
My dumb self thought it would be funny to talk about the Andrew Tate song, which I knew was french, and then offended one person, and they were like why did I bring this topic up. I was too overwhelmed to answer anything by then.
I do realize this, now that I think of it, there is nothing even remotely funny about it.
I hate the fact that as soon as I try to make someone laugh or chuckle, I just dig a grave for myself by doing so, I open my mouth and all that comes out is crap, fucking offending people every other day.
It's like even if I stay alive, and everything goes the way want it to, become successful, I don't think I'll be able to survive with this brain of mine in the society.