Josef2000
Forsaken One
- Nov 5, 2019
- 147
What I mean is that I would love to have a sudden heart attack or go into cardiac arrest during the night in my sleep, that way I wouldn't have to plan anything and I wouldn't realise it's going to happen. I think my family would be 'slightly' relieved in some sense that it wasn't by suicide.
Im no longer actively suicidal (since my last attempt I wrote about a month back) however if I fell onto the road and a lorry was coming I don't think I would get out of the way.
I used to self harm which helped a bit dealing with my suicidal thoughts but anytime I self harm now I end up getting stitches and that raises too much awareness for my family and provides them constant worrying and panic.
I just wish I had a sudden death and be forgotten about
Im no longer actively suicidal (since my last attempt I wrote about a month back) however if I fell onto the road and a lorry was coming I don't think I would get out of the way.
I used to self harm which helped a bit dealing with my suicidal thoughts but anytime I self harm now I end up getting stitches and that raises too much awareness for my family and provides them constant worrying and panic.
I just wish I had a sudden death and be forgotten about