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shampoo sniffer

shampoo sniffer

I was not meant for this life
Aug 10, 2025
247
I hear sometimes that people don't want to take antidepressants because they feel it might change who they are. Personally, I would love to have a new, more social personality if it increased my quality of life. I try to be a nice person but people just don't want anything to do with the introverted.

I've been quiet and shy since I was a child, and I've always been rejected and mocked for it. My parents were emotionally neglectful and raised me and my siblings in social isolation. Socialisation is painful and frightening for me.

I read somewhere about a person getting a knock on the head and their personality was totally changed. Also read about someone who developed incredible musical skills. Wouldn't that be awesome? I wish I had a savant skill.

Clearly something about me is broken and needs fixing.

Maybe what I'm wishing for is a procedure that could erase traumatic memories.

Or just kill me. That's good too.
 
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Dr.Duck

Dr.Duck

Confused
Nov 29, 2025
90
That would be an amazing treatment if it existed. Sometimes I find music makes me a different person. It can give me a the little energy I need to go out.

I have a problem with antidepressants where I can't find one that actually helps. It's just a new one every 6 months or so. I honestly don't have any hope in finding one that works for me.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Paragon
Jul 9, 2025
949
My God, give me a pill to reset everything !! to forget all my traumas, to heal my body, PTSD, OCD, multiple severe anxiety and phobias and other shitty things that ruined my life.
It could be the only suicide alternative. I think it will be available in the future, but we don't have this chance right now. In the past we could have barbiturates easily, so we are just unlucky for being in the wrong era.
 
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NutOrat

NutOrat

Falling Down
Jun 11, 2025
243
I don't know what I expected from antidepressants, I guess I just really hoped they'd give me the energy and the will to do literally anything with my life. Maybe they haven't kicked it yet (more than a month on duloxetine, still waiting), but they feel completely useless so far, and I've given up on the hope that they'd fix me anyway. No matter what, I'd have to put in the work myself, and that's one thing I can't do.
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

bark bark
Jul 25, 2024
563
I don't know what I expected from antidepressants, I guess I just really hoped they'd give me the energy and the will to do literally anything with my life. Maybe they haven't kicked it yet (more than a month on duloxetine, still waiting), but they feel completely useless so far, and I've given up on the hope that they'd fix me anyway. No matter what, I'd have to put in the work myself, and that's one thing I can't do.
Absolutely same.

To me it makes me numb to any kinda of sexuality i might have. It also helps me a lot with anxiety, but with the actual depression and energy? nah.
 
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