it's_all_a_game
I remember...death in the afternoon...
- Nov 7, 2020
- 356
I was going to tell my mom this the other day, but I chickened out because she started crying over how her life turned out. I feel like antinatalism is the One True Belief™ system for me - I just realised yesterday that I truly wish I was never born. If I could divide my life into content/neutral and suffering/stressful moments, 30% would be neutral/content and 70% would be stressful/suffering. While I've some great experiences in life, like travelling overseas and listening to awesome music on $1,500 headphones, I still wish I was never alive due to all the emotional and physical pain I've faced. Yes, yes, others have it worse, but I haven't had it super easy. I've been homeless, bullied, nearly sexually assaulted, etc. And that isn't even mentioning the ennui of my boring life, the alienation I've faced from today's shallow society, and so on. I honestly wish I was never able to feel, see, touch any of this shit at all. I wish time travel was real, so I could make like Marty McFly and prevent my mom & dad from meeting and erase myself from existence.
Last edited: