Dark Spring
Sobreviviendo
- Sep 29, 2020
- 116
I just want to write a little and blow off some steam, my thoughts are very much in turmoil.
I'm really very tired of absolutely everything, the few people I talked to about how I feel only judge me, challenge me for feeling this way, the only thing they say is "don't think about those things anymore". Stop worrying about everything", "don't think about doing something crazy". I don't know if their indifference is because they don't know how to deal with a depressive person, because they don't know that depression exists, because they are totally ignorant of everything, or simply because they don't want to get involved and don't really care how I feel. Talking to someone about what's going on with me is very difficult for me and I only talk about it with people that I consider to be trustworthy and whom I love very much, but the answer they gave me was not the one I expected and it destroys me every day that passes and everyone goes on as if nothing had happened. I opened up all my feelings so that later they don't even ask me how I am or if something is not right. And I remain in this life so as not to disappoint them, those who do not bother to know how I am feeling, I do not want to hurt them with my departure, but all this hurts me much more. I would like to recover and be normal, but it is so difficult to be alive and not be able to enjoy anything. I don't know if it's worth continuing with all this, after all the world keeps spinning whether I'm here or not.
I'm really very tired of absolutely everything, the few people I talked to about how I feel only judge me, challenge me for feeling this way, the only thing they say is "don't think about those things anymore". Stop worrying about everything", "don't think about doing something crazy". I don't know if their indifference is because they don't know how to deal with a depressive person, because they don't know that depression exists, because they are totally ignorant of everything, or simply because they don't want to get involved and don't really care how I feel. Talking to someone about what's going on with me is very difficult for me and I only talk about it with people that I consider to be trustworthy and whom I love very much, but the answer they gave me was not the one I expected and it destroys me every day that passes and everyone goes on as if nothing had happened. I opened up all my feelings so that later they don't even ask me how I am or if something is not right. And I remain in this life so as not to disappoint them, those who do not bother to know how I am feeling, I do not want to hurt them with my departure, but all this hurts me much more. I would like to recover and be normal, but it is so difficult to be alive and not be able to enjoy anything. I don't know if it's worth continuing with all this, after all the world keeps spinning whether I'm here or not.