Venting I wish I went to bed and never woke up again

[Abdullah]

Sometimes I just wish I went to bed and never woke up again even though I'm young. I just don't have the guts to CTB after my failed attempt. The world is really scary. What people will do to you just to make themselves feel better is despicable. Maybe one day when stars are aligned and the moon is full, I'll find the courage to end my existence. Until then I have to conform to this shitty existence and not attract too much attention. The world is watching, you know. You make one wrong move or speak too freely and they'll put you in a lower hell than the one you go through.

 

[idkwhatnametoputher]

One word: heroin.

 

[Abdullah]

One word: heroin.

If only I knew how to cook it

 

[idkwhatnametoputher]

If only I knew how to cook it

Put 2gs of heroin and 0.2gs of citric acid(easy and cheap to find) in 2.5ml water and heat it in a spoon until it dissolves, it should fit in a 5ml syringe. Inject it in your butt(not anus, but muscle) or in your upper-arm. Don't try to IV because you can't fit much H in a 1ml IV syringe, even if you manage to find a larger syringe for IV, you would fall asleep before injecting it all(it takes just 1-5 secs to feel the effect via IV ROA).

 

[ForeverLonely82]

A million times YES. I hate waking up to this world we live in. Don't want wake up anymore. Most folks say "Be happy, you woke up today" i am simply like "Fuck you! that's something I DON'T want to do!"

 

[Hunter2005]

Facts I hate this world so bad.

 

[annxietty]

I agree, the world is scary, many people are pure evil, Im also afraid.

 

[LateForTheBus]

I used to pray every night before bed that I would just die in my sleep. I stopped when I finally accepted that God would not give me that easy way out. (Hugs)

 

[jolongone]

A million times YES. I hate waking up to this world we live in. Don't want wake up anymore. Most folks say "Be happy, you woke up today" i am simply like "Fuck you! that's something I DON'T want to do!"

So many of us feel like that my friend

 

[_Ilee]

I used to pray every night before bed that I would just die in my sleep. I stopped when I finally accepted that God would not give me that easy way out. (Hugs)

For real… I've also wished to just exit peacefully while asleep. How nice that'd be.

 

[leavingsoon99]

I got clear last night in my sleep. I don't want to live. Funny. I feel my body shutting down now. I hope it results in a death in my sleep.

 

[LittleJem]

hate waking up in tbe night and with suicidal thoughts. Sleep is my only break. All day every day, every f//king morning. Now it's 2:51 AM and suicidal thoughts. Wish someone would hit me over the head.

OP sorry fpe your suffering.

and for all of us suffering in yhis brutal world

 

[Doc]

Sometimes I just wish I went to bed and never woke up again even though I'm young. I just don't have the guts to CTB after my failed attempt. The world is really scary. What people will do to you just to make themselves feel better is despicable. Maybe one day when stars are aligned and the moon is full, I'll find the courage to end my existence. Until then I have to conform to this shitty existence and not attract too much attention. The world is watching, you know. You make one wrong move or speak too freely and they'll put you in a lower hell than the one you go through.

Would be so ideal

hate waking up in tbe night and with suicidal thoughts. Sleep is my only break. All day every day, every f//king morning. Now it's 2:51 AM and suicidal thoughts. Wish someone would hit me over the head.

OP sorry fpe your suffering.

and for all of us suffering in yhis brutal world

I'm having really bad thoughts rn I'm very close to ctb I'm so tempted

 

[Rumi]

Sometimes I just wish I went to bed and never woke up again even though I'm young. I just don't have the guts to CTB after my failed attempt.

If only it were as simple as just falling asleep.

It should be, but pro-lifers are desperate to force a meaningful life on people who do not want one.

 

[ILuVCkn]

Ikr i hate living... i always get jealous of people that are dead and would cry when i see someone desperately want to live but get stage 4 cancer like why couldn't that be me instead.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

So many of us feel like that my friend

I know. Just woke up crying today. I really hate modern world life, in my youth it was so much better, easier and looked forward to everyday. Now I don't give a damn what lies in store tomorrow because it will be the same shit as today >_<

 

[ThisIsLife]

I just don't have the guts to CTB after my failed attempt.

What method did you choose ?

PS: Hugs.

 

[uletayu]

Maybe have an accident and go into coma?

 

[jolongone]

Ikr i hate living... i always get jealous of people that are dead and would cry when i see someone desperately want to live but get stage 4 cancer like why couldn't that be me instead.

Feel exactly the same, l cry when l see young kids with cancer and wish l could swap their places

 

[FuneralCry]

That would be ideal, there is nothing more appealing than being unable to suffer for all eternity, existing is just futile and unnecessary, it's a burden to feel trapped here so of course only those who die are the real fortunate ones. In death there are no more problems so of course I always see it as being preferable to not delay the inevitable. As humans we deserve the option to never wake again, I hate how suicide is so difficult, it's true that this world is a hellish place and the tragedy lies in the fact that there's so much unnecessary torment.

 

[wiltingorchid]

I can't describe how much I relate to this. This world is so fucked up.

 

[Meretricious]

The world is really scary. What people will do to you just to make themselves feel better is despicable.

Preach. People are so unobservant, and out for themselves. Anything to get ahead and it doesn't matter the cost to do so.

Politicians and the like:
People may have to die. Oh well. That's a price I'm willing to pay.

The world is watching, you know. You make one wrong move or speak too freely and they'll put you in a lower hell than the one you go through.

The amount of times I've been on the receiving end of this kind of behavior/reaction... Sometimes it seems I'm being stalked, as outlandish as that seems. If not, I must have the least amount of luck in the world.

 

[Abdullah]

What method did you choose ?

PS: Hugs.

Heroin overdose :/

I thought I could snort a whole gram then my nose started hurting. Soon I lost consciousness. My parents found me and called the police.

 

[Rocinante]

I know. Just woke up crying today. I really hate modern world life, in my youth it was so much better, easier and looked forward to everyday. Now I don't give a damn what lies in store tomorrow because it will be the same shit as today >_<

Yep. Life has become so monotonous that I've already lived tomorrow. Nothing will change. It's the same thing day in and day out.
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