Story I wish I was a girl

[SubhumanVirgin]

I realize now that all my problems come from this. My socialization issues, my inability to find a partner or meaningless casual sex. My fear of intimacy. My lack of self esteem. My inability to find a purpose.

All stem from being born the wrong gender.

And no I'm not trans and I don't have a hint of dysphoria. It's just obvious the difference in social acceptance between men who dare be emotional or feminine compared to the infinite acceptance of anything women want to do.

Fuck my life and this gender.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

I can relate, life would be easier if everyone didn't say I looked like Chewbacca, Jesus or Hagrid lol..but I can only blame myself for lack of attempts on the dating/casual sex thing. I got my heart broken once and it made me re-question everything, it broke me. I now choose to be alone and have lost my motivation to grow. I do think there are pros (and cons) to being a woman but it all depends on your experience. There are confident guys out there too, we're just not them

 

[Centerism]

Hey now,
Don't say fuck this gender. Maybe fuck this life, but we were all born worth a purpose. Not like oh I'm a Christian and God has a plan for me, but hey this life has meaning.

In one way or another, we are all here to pass on legacy. Some of us have a tragic approach to life, but that doesn't disclude us for having a meaning.

You wish you were female. That's cool. I'm gay, and I'm feminine. I'm still a male, and I have no problem with being who I want to be. I can be emotional, and I could care less what other people think of that. I cry, I love, I hurt, I care. That is alright.

Although sometimes life seems extra hard because of my sexuality. I mean I crave love, but at the same time I just hop on grindr and search for a sexual release. Feigning that instant love, that orgasm. When it's over I cry, I cry because I am broken.

I have this really cool picture that says "I am br'ok'en"

I love that. It's the background on my phone.

Now I concede to your plight. I wish you had joy in life. I don't know if you're gay, but I can say this. Embrace your inner being. If you feel feminine, be feminine. Wear makeup, I do. Dress provocative, I do. Be edgy, I am. Now most of all, be who you feel you are. Cry, laugh, love... emote you.

You are who you are because you're courageous. And it takes courage to be human, no matter what part of humanity you belong to.

Remember what I said, you have meaning. Maybe that meaning is to show people it's ok to be feminine while inhabiting a chauvinistic exterior.

You are awesome.

Don't ever forget that...

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

Hey now,
Don't say fuck this gender. Maybe fuck this life, but we were all born worth a purpose. Not like oh I'm a Christian and God has a plan for me, but hey this life has meaning.

In one way or another, we are all here to pass on legacy. Some of us have a tragic approach to life, but that doesn't disclude us for having a meaning.

You wish you were female. That's cool. I'm gay, and I'm feminine. I'm still a male, and I have no problem with being who I want to be. I can be emotional, and I could care less what other people think of that. I cry, I love, I hurt, I care. That is alright.

Although sometimes life seems extra hard because of my sexuality. I mean I crave love, but at the same time I just hop on grindr and search for a sexual release. Feigning that instant love, that orgasm. When it's over I cry, I cry because I am broken.

I have this really cool picture that says "I am br'ok'en"
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I love that. It's the background on my phone.

Now I concede to your plight. I wish you had joy in life. I don't know if you're gay, but I can say this. Embrace your inner being. If you feel feminine, be feminine. Wear makeup, I do. Dress provocative, I do. Be edgy, I am. Now most of all, be who you feel you are. Cry, laugh, love... emote you.

You are who you are because you're courageous. And it takes courage to be human, no matter what part of humanity you belong to.

Remember what I said, you have meaning. Maybe that meaning is to show people it's ok to be feminine while inhabiting a chauvinistic exterior.

You are awesome.

Don't ever forget that...

I'm not gay, and not even feminine in terms of how I look. Just in actions. That doesn't even matter, I just wish I had the freedom to act that women do and the infinite safety net they get, instead of having to watch every word I say just to keep social connections and interact as the worthless male piece of shit gender I am. The worst part is men won't even exist in a century, once designer babies are freely available

 

[attribute-level-kale]

The most infamous person from this forum is female - she did not fake it. She is fucking dead.

To the grave with all the advantages you describe.

 

[Centerism]

I'm not gay, and not even feminine in terms of how I look. Just in actions. That doesn't even matter, I just wish I had the freedom to act that women do and the infinite safety net they get, instead of having to watch every word I say just to keep social connections and interact as the worthless male piece of shit gender I am. The worst part is men won't even exist in a century, once designer babies are freely available

Wow, designer babies?
I would never have been on a thought path like that.

But I don't blame you. I agree with the idea that male counterparts are becoming increasingly rare.

It doesn't matter what your sexuality is. Or even if you don't look feminine. I don't look feminine, yet I act feminine.

I had a boyfriend, let's call him m. M and I were two of a kind. He is six foot three, three hundred and eighty pounds, hair all over (we actually called him wolverine), and he was extremely feminine. He was a beautiful person, inside and out. M and i were two genetically male females.

There was nothing wrong with us. We just felt a certain way and we acted on it.

Being who you truly are is being human. There is nothing wrong with being who you are on the inside. Don't hide, deny who you truly are.

Love is eternal, learn to let love live.

I love you brother.

 

[Final Escape]

I can understand your frustration but just know that it is not actually easier for girls and women these days. We are suffering the effects of feminism. I suppose while women are young it's fun under feminism but we are being set up for failure especially for the second half of life when we are no longer attractive to men. If you are a young guy you will probably gain status with age but most men start out invisible to women only to gain status once they age a bit and have resources.

Just how it works. Men are born biologically poor and women are born biologically rich. Women have to get it right much sooner because of the shorter time in which to attract a mate and have kids. Men have a longer window in which to succeed and find a mate. Feminism put women on men's fertility timeline and so many of us are ending up childless and alone in the second half of life.

 

[sleepy dog]

I wish I was so I could be a lesbian, goodness sakes all the great sex I would be having, and getting paid to do it (porn). I might be happy, I don't know, LOL. I don't mean for reals, LOL.

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

The most infamous person from this forum is female - she did not fake it. She is fucking dead.

To the grave with all the advantages you describe.

How is that relevant? Rich people commit suicide all the time, doesn't mean they have it worse.

 

[TiredOfLife95]

Actually these problems you mentioned aren't gender-related.
I'm a girl and I have socialization issues, a lack of self esteem, inability to find a purpose in this f*cking life and so on

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

I can understand your frustration but just know that it is not actually easier for girls and women these days. We are suffering the effects of feminism. I suppose while women are young it's fun under feminism but we are being set up for failure especially for the second half of life when we are no longer attractive to men. If you are a young guy you will probably gain status with age but most men start out invisible to women only to gain status once they age a bit and have resources.

Just how it works. Men are born biologically poor and women are born biologically rich. Women have to get it right much sooner because of the shorter time in which to attract a mate and have kids. Men have a longer window in which to succeed and find a mate. Feminism put women on men's fertility timeline and so many of us are ending up childless and alone in the second half of life.

So women get to enjoy youth while below average men have to look forward to wageslaving and maybe having "fun" in their late 30s. Is that supposed to be a positive? Spare me the feminism talk as well, it isn't harming women lol. The only people using red pill talking points seriously are other shut ins like me. I've seen the real world, it ain't true.

 

[hobbydevil]

Come on now dude. There are so many women out there who would say the same thing just reversed: that being male would be easier, better, safer.

You mention "men going extinct once designer babies are freely available". Yeeeaah. Not like that already happened/happens in certain countries - female fetuses getting aborted or female babies getting killed because it's shameful to those families to have female children.
Women, as a class, have been the "lesser sex" for centuries.
And women had to fight for it to be okay for us to be "masculine" in western society (or even just wear trousers lol).

If you want to be emotional or "feminine" then go for it. The people standing in your way are just dumbass men and dumbass women who can't cope with it.
There are men out there who manage to be sensitive and emotional and they're well-liked. Surrounding yourself with the right people is a good first step.
Don't let low self-esteem become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Easier said than done ofc.

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

Actually there aren't gender-related problems.
I'm a girl and I have socialization issues, a lack of self esteem, inability to find a purpose in this f*cking life and so on

And yet you are easily able to do things that I can only dream of. I'm sure you are suffering, but male and female suffering are not the same thing.

I can't understand the pain of a miscarriage for example

 

[sleepy dog]

Uh, excuse me, back to the lesbian sex thing. That would really be fun. Just a fantasy I know, but oodles of joy, weehee.

 

[TiredOfLife95]

And yet you are easily able to do things that I can only dream of. I'm sure you are suffering, but male and female suffering are not the same thing.

I can't understand the pain of a miscarriage for example

My bad, what I wanted to say with my post (I've written wrong because English isn't my first language, I've corrected it now) that the problem you mentioned aren't gender-related, but I too think there are gender-related problems in general.

And who told you I am easily able to do things that I can only dream of? For example?

 

[Powderedmonster]

I realize now that all my problems come from this. My socialization issues, my inability to find a partner or meaningless casual sex. My fear of intimacy. My lack of self esteem. My inability to find a purpose.

All stem from being born the wrong gender.

And no I'm not trans and I don't have a hint of dysphoria. It's just obvious the difference in social acceptance between men who dare be emotional or feminine compared to the infinite acceptance of anything women want to do.

Fuck my life and this gender.

Women also have far higher levels of mood disorders and depression post puberty...likely due to hormonal factors. Suicide rates are higher in men because they have significantly higher levels of fearlessness about death and pain tolerance, this has been proven time and time again. It is much harder for women to kill themselves yet they have significantly higher rates of mood issues and depression after puberty. I'd say both genders are fucked..

 

[mynameispaige]

I do agree that guys have it harder in some ways. It's not exactly easy for us though. But I see what you're saying. Especially with relationships and everything you mentioned in your other thread. Guys who haven't experienced one tend to be viewed as weak while girls are viewed as innocent. It isn't easy for us though. If it was I wouldn't be where I am now. We each suffer in our own ways. I'm sorry for everything you're going through.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Women these days definitely have it way easier in almost every facet there is but If I could relive life again I'd still choose to be male.

There are so many women out there who would say the same thing just reversed: that being male would be easier, better, safer.

Sure, they can say that but they'd still be wrong.

 

[Final Escape]

Actually THESE* aren't gender-related problems.
I'm a girl and I have socialization issues, a lack of self esteem, inability to find a purpose in this f*cking life and so on

I was like u as a young girl. The main advice I can give you is don't give in to promiscuity, it really will save u lots of heartache if u understand that it's damaging to girls/women if we act like men. You absolutely have to hold out for a reliable responsible guy who will stick around. The main way that women get long term meaning is relationships and people, not jobs or careers. Although some women manage to have a career most just get jobs. Only 2 percent of people will have careers.

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

Be sexually desired by the gender you are attracted to. I'm going to ignore things like easier school admission and job stuff since those aren't really relevant to me since I do well academically.

 

[Final Escape]

So women get to enjoy youth while below average men have to look forward to wageslaving and maybe having "fun" in their late 30s. Is that supposed to be a positive? Spare me the feminism talk as well, it isn't harming women lol. The only people using red pill talking points seriously are other shut ins like me. I've seen the real world, it ain't true.

I lost all my kids because of multiple abortions. I'm not sure how this is suppose to be of benefit to myself. Sure I got released from responsibility and meaning I guess. Should be called nonparenthood instead of planned parenthood. No I didn't really want to abort but I did have issues from childhood leading me to promiscuity from sexual abuse in childhood. So yes feminism is harmful to women even if at first glance it appears to benefit us.

I lost all my kids because of multiple abortions. I'm not sure how this is suppose to be of benefit to myself. Sure I got released from responsibility and meaning I guess. Should be called nonparenthood instead of planned parenthood. No I didn't really want to abort but I did have issues from childhood leading me to promiscuity from sexual abuse in childhood. So yes feminism is harmful to women even if at first glance it appears to benefit us.

Yea it's true about how the bottom 80% of men are not getting laid. Basically under feminism the top 20% of attractive men are having kids probably by multiple women but those guys won't necessarily commit, especially in this feminist environment so lots of fatherless kids now. Then lots of kids are being aborted because of unmarried women choosing to abort because they are trying to avoid the poor working single mother trap.

I would have chosen to be born a guy if I had the choice. Even having been born attractive enough as a female. Most men I meet seem pretty happy with their lives and I meet young and middle age men. Supposedly women's happiness has declined with each generation under feminism. Obviously because gender differences are now ignored and we are pushed into thinking we don't need men when we actually do. Men don't need women but the same cannot be said for women not needing men especially financially.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I realize now that all my problems come from this. My socialization issues, my inability to find a partner or meaningless casual sex. My fear of intimacy. My lack of self esteem. My inability to find a purpose.

All stem from being born the wrong gender.

And no I'm not trans and I don't have a hint of dysphoria. It's just obvious the difference in social acceptance between men who dare be emotional or feminine compared to the infinite acceptance of anything women want to do.

Fuck my life and this gender.

Are you planning on killing yourself?

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

Are you planning on killing yourself?

Yeah, should be done the end of October. Just have a couple things to get done first and then plan to pass out and die from hypothermia

 

[Sweet emotion]

Yeah, should be done the end of October. Just have a couple things to get done first and then plan to pass out and die from hypothermia

Yeah, should be done the end of October. Just have a couple things to get done first and then plan to pass out and die from hypothermia

If you don't mind me asking where are you going to go that you're going to be that cold?

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

If you don't mind me asking where are you going to go that you're going to be that cold?

Northern Canada

 

[Sweet emotion]

Northern Canada

Wow I had no idea it was that cold in northern Canada. That is going to be very painful.

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

Wow I had no idea it was that cold in northern Canada. That is going to be very painful.

Shouldn't matter, I'll be too sedated to feel a thing

 

[Strangeasangels]

I'm not gay, and not even feminine in terms of how I look. Just in actions. That doesn't even matter, I just wish I had the freedom to act that women do and the infinite safety net they get, instead of having to watch every word I say just to keep social connections and interact as the worthless male piece of shit gender I am. The worst part is men won't even exist in a century, once designer babies are freely available

Women have freedom to act?? Are you fucking serious? And how would you know this? You have never been a woman. I, however, have spent my whole life as a woman and I can assure you We most certainly do not have the "freedom to act". Your misery has nothing to do with your gender. The world sucks. People suck. That is all.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Women have freedom to act?? Are you fucking serious? And how would you know this? You have never been a woman. I, however, have spent my whole life as a woman and I can assure you We most certainly do not have the "freedom to act". Your misery has nothing to do with your gender. The world sucks. People suck. That is all.

Too be perfectly fair, women can get away with much more than men can. I don't know if that was what he was referring to or not however.

 

[SubhumanVirgin]

Women have freedom to act?? Are you fucking serious? And how would you know this? You have never been a woman. I, however, have spent my whole life as a woman and I can assure you We most certainly do not have the "freedom to act". Your misery has nothing to do with your gender. The world sucks. People suck. That is all.

Just lol. I can assure you if you live in a western country you have no clue what you're talking about. I'm not talking about fucking Saudi Arabia