I wish I had a partner to CTB with

[Misery99]

I want to die so bad but don't have any easy and accessible methods available where I live. I can't find anyone from my country in this forum. It's highly unlikely that someone from a foreign country would be willing to travel to my country to ctb with me. I wish someone could help me to ctb. I wish I had N, helium exist bag, SN or any other painless method. But I can't find them or afford them. Hanging was my choice before but I don't even have a proper home background to ctb in peace. Can somebody help me please

 

[calssilva]

Which country are you from ?

 

[Misery99]

Which country are you from ?

I don't feel comfortable saying here. I will let you know in a PM

 

[FuneralCry]

A suicide partner is a terrible idea as there are so many risks and complications involved in such a thing and you simply cannot trust people anyway. If one wishes to be gone it's for the best just to plan to die alone, but I very much understand having limited access to methods. I hate how difficult suicide has to be for us and none of us should have to feel so trapped here, we all deserve the option of a straightforward, painless method after being so unfairly forced into this world in the first place, and it's all just so unfair.
But anyway, best wishes.

 

[calssilva]

I wish I had at least somebody besides me at my very last breath. It's just about loneliness...

 

[CringeNihilism]

which country?

 

[calssilva]

which country?

Brazil and you ?

 

[CringeNihilism]

Brazil and you ?

Egypt

 

[Peerless_Cucumber]

I once talked with my Ex about ctb together. We are friends still but have never talked about it again after breaking up. I do not think he ever wanted to ctb for real though. He has never attempted in the past. He also wanted me to persuade him to admit himself into the psychiatry. We talked on the phone for hours. We also broke up that night. If I ever get the courage to try ctb again I want to do it with a partner. I do not want to die alone.
I do not think that I can do that tho. Finding a partner is not easy. Espessialy one who is actually serious about it. I do not want to encourage anyone who is not absolutely sure about it.

 

[missingpeace]

For me I wish there were someone to ensure the deed was done but of course that would be illegal in most countries. Im struggling with feelings of things going wrong.