I WISH I COULD TAKE AWAY EVERYBODY'S PAIN!!.

[Lee deadmanwalking]

Hello everyone, so today is a horrendous day for me, my head is beating me. I've been writing my suicide notes today while I'm waiting for my SN to get sent to me. I've messaged the site for 100g to be sent to the UK ( the site is a true verified site that does provide SN) I'm so sorry but I can't live with myself telling someone the name of the site and then them using it to take there own life....hypocritical I know but I can't. ( there are people that will tell you) . I wish I could take away all your pain and hurt so every single person on here could be free from the torment of our lives. I know this is absolutely stupid but you can send me your pain and bad thoughts through some crazy spirit or whatever and it will land in my brain.....once you have all done that you can be fully fixed and 100% happy and able to carry on a happy and successful lives. Send it over to me telepathically and I'll take it with me as soon as I take my life...I'm really hoping it won't be long as I can't stand anymore. Love to you all. I mean that, it's not our faults, we are not to blame. I did forget to mention i miss my dogs so much and I need to go and be with them,they are my world. I sniff the harness and coats to smell them, I can't be without them. Please this is not a sympathy post, I'm not into sympathy it is just how my fucked up head works.

 

[Lee deadmanwalking]

Hello everyone, so today is a horrendous day for me, my head is beating me. I've been writing my suicide notes today while I'm waiting for my SN to get sent to me. I've messaged the site for 100g to be sent to the UK ( the site is a true verified site that does provide SN) I'm so sorry but I can't live with myself telling someone the name of the site and then them using it to take there own life....hypocritical I know but I can't. ( there are people that will tell you) . I wish I could take away all your pain and hurt so every single person on here could be free from the torment of our lives. I know this is absolutely stupid but you can send me your pain and bad thoughts through some crazy spirit or whatever and it will land in my brain.....once you have all done that you can be fully fixed and 100% happy and able to carry on a happy and successful lives. Send it over to me telepathically and I'll take it with me as soon as I take my life...I'm really hoping it won't be long as I can't stand anymore. Love to you all. I mean that, it's not our faults, we are not to blame. I did forget to mention i miss my dogs so much and I need to go and be with them,they are my world. I sniff the harness and coats to smell them, I can't be without them. Please this is not a sympathy post, I'm not into sympathy it is just how my fucked up head works.

I have emotionally unstable personality disorder, auditory hallucinations, always in phycosis ( please excuse my spelling) extreme depression and everything that gos with it. I self harm badly, today I've made a good old mess of my body, I'm laid in bed now and I'm very uncomfortable because of all my cuts. It's going to be a long night.

 

[SadFoxDreamer83]

This rotten world needs good, sensitive and empathetic people like you, don't give up! Try to change your situation, giving up is the last resort, you are stronger than you think, believe in yourself and fight your demons before giving up. I wish you the best whatever your destiny.

 

[Lee deadmanwalking]

This rotten world needs good, sensitive and empathetic people like you, don't give up! Try to change your situation, giving up is the last resort, you are stronger than you think, believe in yourself and fight your demons before giving up. I wish you the best whatever your destiny.

Very kind words words @SadFoxDreamer83 . It's an absolute task and like climbing a mountain, just getting through one more day is extremely hard. I'm back at the nut house today at 3pm. See what they have to say today. Love to you all

 

[ecstasy]

ur so strong, and very sweet too, like @SadFoxDreamer83 said this world needs more people like you
don't give up if you can, we're all here for u

 

[Lee deadmanwalking]

ur so strong, and very sweet too, like @SadFoxDreamer83 said this world needs more people like you
don't give up if you can, we're all here for u

All very kind words. Unfortunately I'm not that strong. I've given up all hope and am in desperate hope to find this dmc site . I think I found the correct site and messaged but not quite sure it's the correct site. Does anyone know if my private message is open or how I can accept private messages

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

You are such a kind soul in wanting to take everyone's pain away. I hope you can focus on yourself first, your own pain, you don't have to be so strong for the rest of the world too. Take care of you, I wish you to find peace and calm within, and send you love as well. Thank you for caring about us, we care about you too

 

[Darkover]

you can by destroying all life on this planet if i ever get any power in this place i will

 

[Lee deadmanwalking]

You are such a kind soul in wanting to take everyone's pain away. I hope you can focus on yourself first, your own pain, you don't have to be so strong for the rest of the world too. Take care of you, I wish you to find peace and calm within, and send you love as well. Thank you for caring about us, we care about you too

This place is filled with so much love for our "own kind, the lost souls". There isn't the understanding from people in the " real world, the happy people". I look at those happy people and think how lucky they are to be happy. It makes me sad at times that I turned out this way. I had a great upbringing, I don't know where it went wrong. I'm at the nut house again for another appointment ( I have to see them every 2 days at the moment because I keep hurting myself, and I'm soooooo close to ending it all) at 3pm. I'm going to plead for some help because.....well I really want to die but I really know it will hurt my mum dad and wife. But also they all want me to find peace ( there words, not mine) but I do believe they know i will never find peace while I'm alive. Stupid fucking world

 

[cme-dme]

I think everybody on this forum deserves love and happiness. This forum to me is proof that the nicest people are often those who are hurting the most. I've been here for less than 2 weeks yet have already seen so much care and understanding for others even when most of us are at our worst points in life. It feels silly to say on a forum like this but I hope everyone here can find happiness someday.