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starscourge_19
18 yr old failure who fell from grace hard
- Aug 24, 2022
- 11
I'm curious I just want to see what would people think after I do it. How would my family react and stuff. Then I'd like to die off for good
ive told a couple people about signing up for MAiD. 2 havent said anything and the other im currently giving space so he can process it, but i cant see anymore then like 5 people showing up and even then, it depends on my life circumstances at that point. theyd show up if they knew to, but they might not know. i dont have any family, just a couple friends that seem to care. i dont even know why theyre making a deal about MAiD, all i do is complain that my life sucks and im suicidal. plus, its not going to be updated for like 10months (i could be thinking of something else but its around that time) you have 10mnths to change my mind, instead of panicking about a decision almost a year away and maybe try legitimately changing my mind?? just a thoughtI've been dancing at my funeral
Waiting for you to arrive
I was hoping you'd look beautiful
Dancing with tears in your eyes
But nobody came, what a shame, shame, shame
People would probably be more likely to say horrible things about me, claiming my problems were my own fault, or claiming that wanting to get out and meet people was unrealistic or whatever!I think it would be interesting to see if people said fake nice things about me and talked about my 'strengths' - whether they're true or not - or said a depressing "she struggled with mental illness her whole life"
Real talk though I'd be interested to see who cared but my mother would be devastated so I wouldn't like to see that
Same. I have written some pages explaining my reasons so I hope there is some kind of comfort in that for the ones I leave behind. My main concern is my daughter. She is the only thing holding me back atm.I'm curious I just want to see what would people think after I do it. How would my family react and stuff. Then I'd like to die off for good
don't think I'd like to know..
Same. I know that I am the only child my mother has a close relationship with. I am really all she has. When I commit suicide... I don't think I would like to know how it affected her afterwards. I think that's the coward in me speaking, though.don't think I'd like to know..