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worldexploder

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i remember back in 2007 I was in turmoil. Even though I was still an atheist, I clutched my chest and pretended I was wearing a cross. Then I'd sing Amazing Grace over and over and over again while crying. Fucking kept at it until I feel asleep.
 
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TiredHorse

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I'm an atheist, and I still fall asleep sobbing myself to exhaustion, begging/praying aloud to some Greater Sentience to just let me go, let me end, let me never wake up.

Do you think that if I convert to a religion I'll have my prayers answered? Might be worth it...
 
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worldexploder

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I'm an atheist, and I still fall asleep sobbing myself to exhaustion, begging/praying aloud to some Greater Sentience to just let me go, let me end, let me never wake up.

Do you think that if I convert to a religion I'll have my prayers answered? Might be worth it...
Well personally I'm an atheist so I don't believe that anyone's prayers will be answered because I don't believe that there is anyone "up above" to carry out our wishes. 6 million Jews died in the holocaust so I doubt I'm "special" enough to get comfort.

It was one of those "mini" nervous breakdowns were I basically played "pretend"to try and calm myself. Even though I knew there wa no god, singing that song and clutching my chest relaxed me back then for some reason. Whatever works I guess.
 
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Jacquelinr

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i remember back in 2007 I was in turmoil. Even though I was still an atheist, I clutched my chest and pretended I was wearing a cross. Then I'd sing Amazing Grace over and over and over again while crying. Fucking kept at it until I feel asleep.
Hey ..fancy being a vicar's daughter in England in the 1970's when atheism is all you feel???
 
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Jacquelinr

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Hey ..fancy being a vicar's daughter in England in the 1970's when atheism is all you feel???
Ooh..all I felt. Got to get my tenses right..:D
 
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TAW122

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I'm also an atheist myself and don't believe in God or religion. I have a hard time trying to cry myself, sometimes I force myself to cry, but no tears come out yet I still feel gloom and misery all around. I guess when things really hit hard, then I would "naturally" cry.

As for going to bed, I often just try to let my mind wander far away and then eventually drift into sleep and fall asleep.

@TiredHorse I don't recommend wasting time or energy to convert to a religion. Personally, I don't believe there is enough evidence (let alone strong evidence) that directly points to that there is a God or that when certain things happen it is necessarily caused by God.
 
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TiredHorse

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Whatever works I guess.
Not to be trite, but... Amen.
@TiredHorse I don't recommend wasting time or energy to convert to a religion. Personally, I don't believe there is enough evidence (let alone strong evidence) that directly points to that there is a God or that when certain things happen it is necessarily caused by God.
Oh hell no. I was trying to be sarcastic about finding religion. Religion demands faith I have never had, and does not provide any of the evidence that I would need to establish faith.
 
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dysfunctional

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When I went into deep depression, I stopped being able to cry.
 
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Niko

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Oct 4, 2018
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When I went into deep depression, I stopped being able to cry.
Me too. I didn't know this was a thing? I used to cry all the time as a kid and I think I just cried out all the tears I could have. It kind of sucks because crying is actually therapeutic and cathartic, elephants cry too to relieve stress.
 
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dysfunctional

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Me too. I didn't know this was a thing? I used to cry all the time as a kid and I think I just cried out all the tears I could have. It kind of sucks because crying is actually therapeutic and cathartic, elephants cry too to relieve stress.
Yeah it's a normal part of being human and one of many reasons I know I'm effed up beyong all understanding.
 
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YoungThugLover

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I wish i could cry myself to death like i want to
 
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TheLastTrip

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Nov 2, 2018
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God I'm so relieved to know it's not just me that has lost the ability to cry, haven't for 16 years and can't even in situations I want to, or situations I don't want to but know I should. I couldn't even last night as I wrote my goodbye notes to people, not a drop ;-;
 
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worldexploder

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God I'm so relieved to know it's not just me that has lost the ability to cry, haven't for 16 years and can't even in situations I want to, or situations I don't want to but know I should. I couldn't even last night as I wrote my goodbye notes to people, not a drop ;-;
You're definitely not alone buddy. I can only cry when I'm really drunk unfortunately. Doesn't take much at that point. Sober? Forget about it! Crying did make me feel better back when I could do it.
 
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Virgo

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I'm an atheist, and I still fall asleep sobbing myself to exhaustion, begging/praying aloud to some Greater Sentience to just let me go, let me end, let me never wake up.

Do you think that if I convert to a religion I'll have my prayers answered? Might be worth it...
No your religion doesn't determine if some God exists.
 
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TiredHorse

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Lifeisatrap

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I'm the opposite, I can't stop crying.
 
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worldexploder

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I'm the opposite, I can't stop crying.
I use to be like that up till the late 2000s. Crying myself to sleep almost every night. For me, crying actually helped but I just can't seem to do it anymore unless I'm drunk. I feel too down to cry if that makes any sense.
 
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Strumgewehr

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Jun 7, 2018
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Well personally I'm an atheist so I don't believe that anyone's prayers will be answered because I don't believe that there is anyone "up above" to carry out our wishes. 6 million Jews died in the holocaust so I doubt I'm "special" enough to get comfort.

It was one of those "mini" nervous breakdowns were I basically played "pretend"to try and calm myself. Even though I knew there wa no god, singing that song and clutching my chest relaxed me back then for some reason. Whatever works I guess.

Very high chances they didn't.
 
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marcelfoz

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Nov 16, 2018
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I used to be the opposite like i had such a hard time crying and it was almost impossible for me. After some shit i went through this year i just cry ALL the time lol.
 
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