i was shot

[ayla]

hi everyone loll, i havent been active on here in a while and i received a lot of dms asking where i was.

im nervous to talk about this and dont really know how to without exposing my identity but to make a story short, i was shot 3 times because i said no to sex. he left me to die.

ive never been closer to death and in all honesty, i was horrified and for the first time in my life i let out the words "i don't wanna die". i was found by a girl and her boyfriend and thats also the first time ive ever seen strangers cry for me.. they let me know that they were with me and wont leave me. i never believed people when they said people in comas are able to hear everything until i was in one. i heard all my family cry for me and begging me to wake up.

if u told past me that i lived and wasnt at least paralyzed id call u a liar because how could that be possible? present me is stuck and confused because when i woke up i was happy to be alive then the crash came all i wanted was to be dead because this is just another horrible thing im gonna have to deal with. i feel ugly because of the disgusting looking stomach / leg i have now. i dont know. i get random "motivation" throughout my days and want to live then it all goes away. ive never been the type to believe in a god but all my family tells me is god saved me & that im not meant to die yet. its confusing

im gonna quit this forum but im open to questions in the meantime (no need to hold back)

 

[PuppyCatTeeth]

I cant imagine how terrifying that was, the world is so cruel.

 

[Forever Sleep]

That must have been a terrifying experience. I hope they've arrested the guy.

I hope you make a full recovery. It makes sense you want a break from here. I imagine an experience like that would shift your perspective. All the best to you.

 

[whywere]

OMG!!

I am in total shock. I hope and pray that the person who pulled the trigger on you gets life with no parole ever.

I hope and pray that you will make a full recovery in the future, as you are way too precious of a soul to not get whole again.

I cried reading this, as you are family and NO ONE EVER should have to even think about a life threating event, especially at the hand of another person.

GOD speed in recovery and lots of well wishes, hugs and the knowledge that you ARE family.

Walter

 

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[vanillamilkshakes]

I am so sorry, this world is truly so cruel. I hope you find your peace and are able to heal, I wish you nothing but the best

 

[JustAnotherSadMan]

hi everyone loll, i havent been active on here in a while and i received a lot of dms asking where i was.

im nervous to talk about this and dont really know how to without exposing my identity but to make a story short, i was shot 3 times because i said no to sex. he left me to die.

ive never been closer to death and in all honesty, i was horrified and for the first time in my life i let out the words "i don't wanna die". i was found by a girl and her boyfriend and thats also the first time ive ever seen strangers cry for me.. they let me know that they were with me and wont leave me. i never believed people when they said people in comas are able to hear everything until i was in one. i heard all my family cry for me and begging me to wake up.

if u told past me that i lived and wasnt at least paralyzed id call u a liar because how could that be possible? present me is stuck and confused because when i woke up i was happy to be alive then the crash came all i wanted was to be dead because this is just another horrible thing im gonna have to deal with. i feel ugly because of the disgusting looking stomach / leg i have now. i dont know. i get random "motivation" throughout my days and want to live then it all goes away. ive never been the type to believe in a god but all my family tells me is god saved me & that im not meant to die yet. its confusing

im gonna quit this forum but im open to questions in the meantime (no need to hold back)

I am very happy you survived. I hope your attacker goes to prison and gets multiple visits from the other inmates, if you know what I mean . Knowing how inmates feel about crimes against women, it will probably happen.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

What the- surviving 3 gun shots sounds so terrifying. I've always fantasised somebody shooting me but, after reading this post, I don't fantasise that anymore. I thought that at least one bullet would be enough to kill somebody and, if not one, two should definitely be enough. It scares me to know that isn't always the case. I'm sorry for the suffering that you're going through

 

[trashhologram]

OMG I'm so sorry! That's so cruel.

 

[whydidthishappen]

Can he go to JAIL?!?!?!?! Wtffffffffff

 

[maniac116]

Wow, that is so traumatic & terrible. I can't even imagine!!!
That is definitely a big life changing event. I'm glad you are relatively ok. I hope you get help for the PTSD from this traumatic event so you can find & keep a balance in life.
Love & peace to you & I pray you can make necessary changes in your life to get back to a relative normalcy & happiness in your life.
Blessings to you for a healthy happy future

 

[deadstillwalking]

This is so horrifying, the fact that this can happen to literally anyone at any point of their life completely out of the blue is nothing but gut-wrenching... I'm so sorry this happened to you, it must have been an experience so terrifying the most (if not all) of us can't even imagine. Of course, take your time to recover, we wish you all the best!

 

[endofline2010]

Well, you know who did it to you. I hope you find the courage and conviction to put two in his chest and one in his head.

 

[whywere]

Was thinking of you all night and this morning, it is 2:42pm on 11.08 and I have had you in my thoughts and heart since I read this last night.

I generally do not believe in violence, however in this case, I wish that he got the same treatment back that he did to you.

I will have you in my prayers for ever, as with you as family, nothing can ever break the chains of love, kindness and empathy, not even a mindless jerk or bullets ever.

Get well my great friend and family member.

Walter

 

[mrpeter]

you should call the police

 

[ayla]

Can he go to JAIL?!?!?!?! Wtffffffffff

i unfortunately know nothing about him, just how he looks. i was walking home and it all happened very quick. ive told the police everything i can & hes wanted idk its very scary knowing hes out there.. just waiting for the call he's been caught at this point :/

Was thinking of you all night and this morning, it is 2:42pm on 11.08 and I have had you in my thoughts and heart since I read this last night.

I generally do not believe in violence, however in this case, I wish that he got the same treatment back that he did to you.

I will have you in my prayers for ever, as with you as family, nothing can ever break the chains of love, kindness and empathy, not even a mindless jerk or bullets ever.

Get well my great friend and family member.

Walter

thank you so much your words mean more than you know. ive never felt so much comfort from strangers and it gives me hope in people. thank you again

 

[CatLvr]

What the- surviving 3 gun shots sounds so terrifying. I've always fantasised somebody shooting me but, after reading this post, I don't fantasise that anymore. I thought that at least one bullet would be enough to kill somebody and, if not one, two should definitely be enough. It scares me to know that isn't always the case. I'm sorry for the suffering that you're going through

The rapper, 50 Cent, was shot 9 times, at least once in the face, and survived. It is amazing what modern medicine can do. And yet, there is so much they still have difficulty getting "right", like mental health.

To the OP: I'm glad you survived. That sounds like a horrible experience and like others have mentioned, I would whole-heartedly administer the death penalty to said asshole. Some people just need killing.

 

[maniac116]

hi everyone loll, i havent been active on here in a while and i received a lot of dms asking where i was.

im nervous to talk about this and dont really know how to without exposing my identity but to make a story short, i was shot 3 times because i said no to sex. he left me to die.

ive never been closer to death and in all honesty, i was horrified and for the first time in my life i let out the words "i don't wanna die". i was found by a girl and her boyfriend and thats also the first time ive ever seen strangers cry for me.. they let me know that they were with me and wont leave me. i never believed people when they said people in comas are able to hear everything until i was in one. i heard all my family cry for me and begging me to wake up.

if u told past me that i lived and wasnt at least paralyzed id call u a liar because how could that be possible? present me is stuck and confused because when i woke up i was happy to be alive then the crash came all i wanted was to be dead because this is just another horrible thing im gonna have to deal with. i feel ugly because of the disgusting looking stomach / leg i have now. i dont know. i get random "motivation" throughout my days and want to live then it all goes away. ive never been the type to believe in a god but all my family tells me is god saved me & that im not meant to die yet. its confusing

im gonna quit this forum but im open to questions in the meantime (no need to hold back)

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