SaulGoodmanxX
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- Mar 7, 2024
- 5
Honestly im not sure if i shot myself or someone shot me, and i probably wouldnt even be thinking about this dream too much if i had just woken up after "dying" like what i think would happen. Everything was just dark, nothing for a while then i woke up. Ive been prescribed a couple of SSRI's and was taking them for a solid 6 months, then like a month ago stopped because i wanted to try shrooms (again) and thc. Probably not really worth it as i would say i was doing better on the meds but oh well. Even on the meds the was always this yearning to feel how i did at my worst, even though its been almost 2 years since id say i was there. I remember this comment i saw when was on here that was something along the lines of "My fear of death is stronger than my will to die" not sure who said it but it really spoke to me. And thats my only hurdle basically. Even though ive been content/believed in the idea of "nothingness" or an "afterlife" both religious and that of which talked about in cases of near death experiences. IDK in just in a rambling mood ig. Happy new years :)
