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MissNietzsche

MissNietzsche

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But last minute, I decided to create a fake number and text him from it. That was all it took for him to assume I was some chick and to convince him to have sex with her.

LMAOOO, I'm not going to kill myself over someone who wouldn't die for me. At least, he told me a year ago that we would, but I guess he changed his mind. I feel like such an idiot.

Right after, I texted him from my real number, finally telling him off for good. He says I need help, but I'm not the one who lies to others.

Now, we're blocked from each other's lives forever..but because of that dunce, I'm safe another day at least. Problem is, the only person or thing I love anymore is my cat.

I can't believe I wasted two pooping years of my life on my ex. I knew he was too dumb to date from the beginning, but he was so nice that I wanted to give him a chance...lmao, the lines he used on me when we were starting to know each other were almost the same lines he used on my catfish.

Everyone tells me I'm crazy, so I wanted to give him a chance, but honestly, I really think I'm the only sane one here. Never dating a guy who is too stupid to think for himself again..and I'm certainly not going to die over one.
 
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realjunes

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Oct 1, 2019
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That was very clever of you MissN. That had to be some great satisfaction to know what you now know, and to set that whole thing aside now. Good work.
 
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Ame

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Nov 1, 2019
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Oh my goodness, I'm sorry to hear about your ex-boyfriend but I am glad that you were able to make a clean break (had you not, you may have ended up wasting more than two years in a relationship with a person who does not seem to be as committed as you are). I don't think that I would have gone to the same lengths as you to pull out your ex's intentions, but it was probably for the best in the end. Still it must have been a painful revelation seeing as you did love this person very much. You will feel what you will feel, although I hope that you will be kind to yourself as you come to terms with the end of this relationship. Maybe you could spoil your cat and shower them with love and treats.
 
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imstillhungry

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Nov 19, 2019
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I'm sorry you wasted so much time and energy on him. Honestly it sounds like he's not even worth killing yourself over. If there's any chance your life could improve I'd stick around and see it through just out of spite. Because the best revenge is your happiness.

I can relate though, my ex was extremely abusive and completely destroyed my self esteem and crushed my soul. I still love him and am lost without him. He's a contributing factor to my decision to ctb, but not the only factor. There's no chance my life will improve so I'm at peace with my decision.

I hope if it's at all possible you can rethink yours, and not end up ctb over someone who isn't worth it
 
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Final Escape

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Jul 8, 2018
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I never want to ctb over anyone so if I'm heartbroken I want to get over it before I ctb so I'm not doing it because of the temporary intensity of pain over the heartbreak, but it's in those times it's most tempting unfortunately. Oh and I would be embarrassed if someone thought I killed myself over them lol! I don't want anyone to think I would do that over them. Like dude ure not that special mmk lol!
 
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Honestly, it's good that you guys will have no contact. It'll give you the opportunity to get over him and over time you'll move on and thank yourself for it. Hang in there, girl ❤️❤️
 
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angele

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Nov 20, 2019
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Good for you omg!!!!!! I know what it feels like to wanna die because of an ex and i'm so proud of you!!
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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But last minute, I decided to create a fake number and text him from it. That was all it took for him to assume I was some chick and to convince him to have sex with her.

LMAOOO, I'm not going to kill myself over someone who wouldn't die for me. At least, he told me a year ago that we would, but I guess he changed his mind. I feel like such an idiot.

Right after, I texted him from my real number, finally telling him off for good. He says I need help, but I'm not the one who lies to others.

Now, we're blocked from each other's lives forever..but because of that dunce, I'm safe another day at least. Problem is, the only person or thing I love anymore is my cat.

I can't believe I wasted two pooping years of my life on my ex. I knew he was too dumb to date from the beginning, but he was so nice that I wanted to give him a chance...lmao, the lines he used on me when we were starting to know each other were almost the same lines he used on my catfish.

Everyone tells me I'm crazy, so I wanted to give him a chance, but honestly, I really think I'm the only sane one here. Never dating a guy who is too stupid to think for himself again..and I'm certainly not going to die over one.

People say some pretty stupid things in relationships to gain your trust. But hey, atleast you only wasted two years of your life with him. I wasted 13 years, she got over me so quick I was kinda stunned.

Like you, I learned that it's not worth it to kill yourself over someone. I see now that you must be selfish with some things in life and that's definitely one of them. I'm sure you've learned this lesson as well.

Best of luck if you decide to re enter the dating scene. Be much more skeptical and keep your guard up, trust that gut feeling you had last time.
 
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MissNietzsche

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People say some pretty stupid things in relationships to gain your trust. But hey, atleast you only wasted two years of your life with him. I wasted 13 years, she got over me so quick I was kinda stunned.

Like you, I learned that it's not worth it to kill yourself over someone. I see now that you must be selfish with some things in life and that's definitely one of them. I'm sure you've learned this lesson as well.

Best of luck if you decide to re enter the dating scene. Be much more skeptical and keep your guard up, trust that gut feeling you had last time.

Yep, my gut feeling said no on this one, but I really messed up by not listening to it. Did you have a gut feeling at the beginning of your relationship?
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Yep, my gut feeling said no on this one, but I really messed up by not listening to it. Did you have a gut feeling at the beginning of your relationship?

I was blinded by love at the beginning. But I started to see signs and red flags as the relationship progressed. Those signs are more abundantly clear to me now in the wake of it all. I think as time went on it began to wear down her feelings for me.

I do know that if she isn't hurting right now that she will be. You don't spend 13 years of your life with someone without it having some sort of lasting impact. I still miss and love her to some degree and hope she finds happiness again. It was definitely a learning experience for me that I'll carry with me throughout the remainder of my life.
 

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